stop spending

I have to admit, I’ve been doing pretty good with this goal. I’ve not shopped in a few weeks and I’ve kept my daily spending under 10$. It doesnt feel either good or bad- its just what it is. but when you’ve messed things up, ya gotta clean it up. I suppose its a lesson learned if only a little too late!

I’m so embarassed! i cant control my spending. but no more… i cant keep spending the way I’ve been spending. Sure I’m in school but i have to make this work for myself and i have to learn that I cant always have what I want right then and there. This is going to be hard but with the help of my wonderful boyfriend, i’m going to make it…

i have a hot-and-heavy love affair with designer purses and shoes. must. stop. now.

I’m doing so well- I haven’t gone shopping in like 2 weeks. I will be able to check off this goal once my mastercard bill comes in. This is all very exciting and rewarding! we all learn lessons in life; no one is perfect and we all make mistakes. I have learned that I am a compulsive spender. I do it to make myself feel better when I have had a hard day or when I realize that I dont feel very confident. The solution (wait for it…): is to attack my problems face on. I feel depressed sometimes because I feel ugly- I feel ugly because I have gained some weight- I have gained weight because I am bored and dont do anything- and I am like this partly because my mother is so hard to deal with and partly because I am undisciplined and too sensitive. People often say that we should cut the people out of our lives that give us heartache. I know I cant cut my mother out of my life, but I have to learn to be far less dependent on her approval. I have to spend some time on myself and deal with my problems. I think I’m on the right track! Hurray!

So, i havent gone shopping in 2 days. it may not seem so impressive to some but to me, its a huge deal. small steps… small step…