I can honestly say YES I am for sure always tripping myself up. I am 28yrs old and can think of a sh*t load of ways I have got in my own way. I tend to look at the road to life as a tricky one. If you have 2 paths and both can be good but you know that one will lead you to this kind of life your are unsure of and another will lead you to a kind of life you can also make ok. Well here is where I stand basically looking out over these cross roads, paralyzed by some unknown forces within me to keep figuring out what makes the most sense. I also have many anxiety and fear issues which could play a role in my stagnation. I am grateful for having choices and options, but I have noticed that I have had many dreams and hope and they tend to disintegrate before my very eyes. Basically my thoughts ruin my actions and my actions or un-actions become my reality. Does anyone else understand me on this one? I have tried the zen ways of letting life happen and being happy with what comes, but I think my mind is on overdrive as I am on the west coast and could stay here and learn how to live on my own for the first time, or go back to the east coast where I am from and have family and support while I plan to possible head back to school. So life it is not meant to be easy, and I realize I make it impossible at times.
Any advice or shared stories would be great thanks all
