I’m a 21 year old female who needs to give up drinking for the safety of herself and others. I recently about 2 years ago started having these episodes where if I drink a lot and someone makes me mad, I go completely crazy. I’ve punched cars, walls, metal poles.. anything you can think I’ve probably punched. I’ve torn one of my best friends trapezoid because I got mad at her. I have even taken knives out to do more damage for whatever reason, but never have been able to go through. I do not know why all of a sudden these episodes happened, it only happens when I drink to much. I’ve tried to limit myself and I’ll do really well for a while, but then all of a sudden I have another episode. I’m a senior in college and the atmosphere here is DRINK, DRINK, DRINK so it’s really hard to limit yourself. Basically, none of my friends want to be around me when I drink and neither does my family. I really want to give up drinking because alcohol is ruining my relationships with people. The hardest part for me about giving up drinking is knowing that I’ll be the one who sits at home on the weekend while everyone goes out and has a good time. Yes, people say you can still go out and not drink.. but I have done that and it isn’t always that fun being around a bunch of drunk people. I am wondering if there is anyone out there with anger problems when they drink? Does anyone have any advice?
How to give up drinking
How I did it: Essentially I did it for my kids. After rehab & finding AA I keep sober for me. Looking out for Number One is really looking out for Number Two.
It took a lot of soul searching, praying, sticking with like minded people, wrkn my 12steps etc etc but one relief is all I needed to work on was keeping sober ONE DAY @ A TIME
Lessons & tips: AA isn't the only way but this works for me. Keep an open mind. I wish you well dear reader.
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hi all, starting today, I am giving this evil shit up, Have had it, I didn’t realise how much it controls your life until you take a step back and look at yourself.
funki_sock_munki is trying to figure out life, the universe & everything
Can anyone recommend a good secular rehab programs in Seattle, WA?
...just told me I need to walk away from drinking…that my drinking was out of control – something I have known for a long time
I am inspired by all the stories here and wish everyone the best of luck
its scary but I know I have to do it – looking forward to a better life
Nearly a week of no alcohol. Last night I was alone in a hotel in Auckland with bottles of wine and beers in the fridge. My employer will pick up the cost $20 dollars of drink with a meal which I usually glug down. Instead I swam and swam in the pool until tired out.
Coming back home I spent 2 hours tonight in the Koru airport lounge
surrounded by free booze that everyone else seemed to be throwing down their necks and enjoying. I managed not to stick to orange juice ( just )it was really hard though.
Then on the plane they offered us free wine which Air NZ hardly ever do, then they came round again to offer another glass ( oh no !) . talk about temptation!!!! Arrived home and my partner had the remnants of a bottle of wine left from the previous night. I just said you finish it off ( which she did..phew ) I am determined at least to last a week without drinking. I do feel and look better but damn this is hard. i wonder how long it will be before I don’t care or want a drink?
Hope life is going well for you all.. things can only get better
I read all your stories yesterday and felt inspired to try giving up. I can’t remember actually a day without alcohol for years ( well if I’m ill I suppose I don’t drink).
I’ve been ok so far, better than I thought I would be and drinking a lot of sparkling water . It does feel strange without a glass of wine in my hand though.
Wishing everyone here the best of luck!
I must say I’m inspired by all the comments here, I’ve been drinking since I was 14. At 18 I would drink homebrew that hadn’t even finished brewing in desperation. Now 25 and can only count about 20 days in 7 years that I haven’t had a drink..
It’s a spiritual, physical and I must say financial burden to drink every day and I’m only now starting to turn and face it. It’s going to hurt, boredom will most likely take me but here’s hoping 2009 (well no point starting before new year, that’s just cruel) will be a sober one for me.
Wish you all the best of luck..
senanaman is reading normal people who drink too much
hi all. I’m intending to give up drinking on jan 1st 2009. I have never used a website for this aim before. i’ve been reading entries by people logged on here and I’m impressed by honesty and the normality of everybody. I can relate to many of the sentiments. I feel i’m part of that community of ordinary people who can get through day to day living, hold down a job, have a family life, but…...drink too much for their own good. And I’m not happy about it. I’m hoping to communicate with people who are in a similar situation. I’ve tried to abstain before, many times, but it hasn’t worked.
Here’s hoping to hear from someone,
thanks
senanaman
I am sitting on my sofa, not at work where I should be, with a hangover – again, having lied to by boss about the reason I am not in work. The entries I have read on this site are all so familiar – loneliness, boredom, worst drunk at all the parties, humiliation, regret, loss, nastiness… I can’t do this any more. I need to stop. I have lost too much and keep kidding myself that it’s not that bad or that I don’t really have a problem but the truth is there in front of me. I have a problem and I’m sick and tired of this weight around my neck dragging me down. I’m sick of knowing that I have a brain in my skull that is good but that at least two days of the week it isn’t being used because it is shivering in a dark corner of my head, shrivelled and abused from the effect of the bottle or two of white wine I had the night before. This is such a waste and I am scared and I don’t know how I am going to cope or whether I have the balls to do this. But I know it’s time. Any advice is as always very welcome and I admire you all for your strength. I hope you still revel in your success
I’ve been sober for eight days now and am already feeling refreshed, and am also happy to be experiencing consciousness in the mornings again.
I started drinking when I was thirteen and was a massively heavy drinker from sixteen until eight days ago.
Eight days seems slight in comparison to my history of drinking and also to the length of time others have gone in their own abstinence, but it is the longest I have ever gone, which means I am experiencing quite a high. Hopefully I can keep this up.
