disappear

How to Disappear

First rehearse the easy things.
Lose your words in a high wind,
walk in the dark on an unlit road,
observe how other people mislay keys,
their diaries, new umbrellas.
See what it takes to go unnoticed
in a crowded room. Tell lies:
I love you. I’ll be back in half an hour.
I’m fine.

The childish things.
Stand very still behind a tree,
become a cowboy, say you have died,
climb into wardrobes, breathe on a mirror
until there’s no one there, and practice magic,
tricks with smoke and fire—
a flick of the wrist and the victim’s lost
his watch, his wife, his ten pound note. Perfect it.
Hold your breath a little longer every time.

The hardest things.
Eat less, much less, and take a vow of silence.
Learn the point of vanishing, the moment
embers turn to ash, the sun falls down,
the sudden white-out comes.
And when it comes again – it will -
just walk at it. walk into it, and walk,
until your know that you’re no longer
anywhere.

I dream about disappearing…

I often fantasize about buying a plane ticket and leaving without telling anyone. I’d just disappear. No one need know where I’ve gone. If only I wasn’t in university… I’d leave tomorrow if I wasn’t.

it’ll be so nice just to disappear… to vanish…

Bye bye, Rockville! FUCK OFF.

I want to disappear from my school. There’s no one that I like there. I’m dropping out and starting college early. Soon, I will just be gone.

I have Multiple Sclerosis and a tramatic brain injury. I can usually keep things staight but now I’m falling apart. I’m totally clueless.

i rather just run away for a little and then come back and be like “Hey Everybody!”

Gave up on pretty much everything. It wasn’t good.

Did it, will do it again…Love the reactions!