Marietta“And in the end, we were all just humans...Drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.”
I’ve been feeling lost lately. Disconnected. Something is missing from my life, I just can’t pin it down and work it out. I have all these questions and I know it’s normal. Some time ago I established that I’m an atheist and now, I’m still an atheist, but I just want to find that faith that others have. Logic always wins the battle against God. I can’t wrap my mind around the idea that someone created the world or that someone is watching over me, but right now I need that faith. I need something. I guess I’m just feeling a little lonely right now. Everything is fine. It’s better than fine actually, but I’m just tired of this roller coaster.
I’m getting restless again. It happens when I spend too many hours in the same place. I want to go somewhere, where I can experience beauty and nature. My home is beginning to harass me. I just want to go somewhere else. I don’t want to feel this way. I want to have faith. Little by little I feel like falling to pieces. I want someone to save me. I want me to save me. 5 months ago