open up my heart

I’m going to try and experiment with opening up my heart as much as possible, and when I get emotionally wounded, I’m going to try and be mindful about what is happening in that moment, in order that I can learn why I get hurt.

It is easy to get angry at someone or be hurt by something they say or do. I am very interested in why I get hurt though, because I think if we delve deeper we might unlock the reasons for hurt, and eventually we will be hurt less while retaining an open heart.

I suppose a lot of it is about trust. If we don’t trust then we put up defences which I guess is the equivalent of closing the heart.

I think in time it’s possible to open the heart fully, but it will take a lot of inner work.

I might come to the conclusion that sometimes it is good to put up defences, but what are these defences defending? Ego perhaps? Maybe.

I hope this doesn’t sound like pseudo-psychological babble ;o) It makes sense to me anyway hehe

The experiment will be fun (and possibly painful, but certainly worth it).

...because opening up one’s heart means that we are opening ourselves up to receiving both love and pain.

I think with time I will not feel as hurt when people are abusive to me or let me down.

Sometimes I think I’m bad at choosing decent people for friends. Maybe I’m bad at reading people or maybe I’m too forgiving of people’s faults, so I let bad people in?

Not sure, but I need to do something to sort this out once and for all!

I feel disheartened today :(

What good is having an open heart when it seems like there is no one worth opening it up to? I feel like I am ready to open up my heart only problem is… no one is there.