Find A More Positive Outlook On Life

Confrontation of some very hard and painful information about my life, has given me a chance to take a good hard look at where the problems in my life are coming from. I have become a very negative and closed person and do not like that about myself.

Having realised what is important to me in my life, one of my New Year’s resolutions is to become a more positive person and to put out good things into the universe in the hope that I can grow into the person I should be.

I am currently suffering from depression which I intend to get help with from my doctor, but I am hopeful that an attitude shift will help me heal.

Wish me luck. For the first time in a long time, I believe it can happen…

I am generally a happy person, and if not, I can fake it well around my friends to lead them to believe that life is grand.  Like with confidence, if one can fake happiness, perhaps soon enough one shan’t need to pretend anymore.  Mind you, I am one of those people who finds the sadder things in life to be the most beautiful, especially with classical music, so I don’t mind being sad, either.  I don’t need attention or to take it out on others when I am upset, really, even if my sister tends to get the brunt of things (that is something which needs to be stopped).  I like my pessimistic outlook on life, for I am also an idealistic INFP type of pessimist, so what does it hurt preparing for the worst?  Nothing is disappointing on this side of life, when everything turns out better than expected.  :)

What I am trying to say here is that I am giving up this goal, but going back and reading again makes me wonder—are my views of life truly pessimistic, or pessimistic with an optimistic streak?  Is this such a bad perspective to harbour?  My last sentence of the first paragraph, after all, did sound a bit cheery in comparison.  I wonder.

i have a bleak outlook on life. Pretty much that all i have to live for is to die? No, Im not depressed, but i tend to think more abstractly and in depth about all things so whenever i think on the subject of life, i can really only think of the inevitability of death.

If I can be really happy the same day i failed the biggest goal in my life that meant more than anything else ever before, i have truly achieved this goal. I’m happy.

I’m ususally so negative. Lately though I’ve been trying. Even though I’m still negative, just finding the things that go right makes me so happy. The past week has been tons of fun even when I don’t have a good day.

Being positive internally is difficult for me. I tend to look at things in a “half-empty” kind of way, not because I’m a nay-sayer or necessarly a pessimist, but rather because I feel rejection and disappointment so acutely that I often forego the hope process altogether.

The point is that I would like to find a way to credibly infuse my life with positivity and confidence. I would like to find a way to believe in something again…