have a close friend

I’ve always wanted the sort of friend that I could rely on totally, no matter what. Like a sister or a brother. I want a friend that will love my husband and children, and I their’s. I want to raise our families together and share the same morals and values and religion. I want to trust he or she with my life, or to be alone with my husband… not that he isn’t trustworthy because he definantly is. I have many specifications… so many infact, I doubt my friend even exists. I feel strangely about this one, I’m a one best friend at a time sort of person. I am very… exclusive? I haven’t the patience for just anyone!! bad person

I have lots of friends. The problem is I don’t have any close friends that I can just hang out w/ and have a good time…tell my deep dark secrets to w/o being judged. Someone who will listen and someone who will talk….A two way street not one…The friends I have now are mostly self centered and I can’t trust them. Opening up for me takes a lot as it is. It would be nice to have just one close friend to communicate w/.