stop obsessing over imperfection

It’s strange how I still really want to lose weight, get fit, get in shape, fix the way I look, fix my horrible habit of always procrastinating, etc.

... yet I do want to stop obsessing over all of these days. I guess in a way I just want to look a little bit better, feel a little bit better. I don’t have to be perfect, I know I won’t reach perfection (in any sense of the word) anyway and I think I’ll know when to accept the way I am.

Imperfections we all have them in one way or an other, but just because of a few flaw dosen’t make undesirable. Let me know when someone’s out there,that is perfect, I want to meet you. He-he. If you look deep enough you just may find the beauty of it all. :)

it feels good to let go of some little insecurity that is holding you back!!!

I feel really bad about my body. All my friends say i’m dead skinny but i dont agree with them. I have a pudge around my belly. I’d like to be able to forget about it and enjoy myself.

This goal is more complicated than it seems. Rather than avoiding stress over little imperfections, I should be paying attention to why I am stressing over these imperfections. Sometimes, stressing over little things just distracts me from more painful or complicated causes of anxiety, and this just continues a cycle of stress. I had this epiphany yesterday. My mom came to visit for the weekend and we went shopping. As I was trying on clothes I became pretty upset that I was a small and not an extra small, which I now see is ridiculous. I realized that being upset about my size was really just distracting me from the issues brought up from seeing my mother again. ugg… but who wants to deal with that?