stop being angry

working on it.

I let myself get used. I am now once again in a position where I’m helping other people achieve their goals while mine sit on the back burner. I have to remember this is nobodies fault but mine. The people I’m angry at probably wonder what’s wrong with me. I haven’t talked about how I feel. I’m angry at myself. I need to see some things through that I don’t feel like doing. I’m going too because I started it. It may take time. I must keep my dreams alive while helping my friends reach theirs. My dreams need attention. I need to reach a point where I come first. And I must feel positive about the love and strength I have to share with others in the meantime. I also Cannot let myself be pushed around I need to be able to calmly,intelligently and with passion explain how I feel.I need to stand my ground. I just want to re-channel this negativity. work write songs create LIVE MY LIFE LOVE MY LIFE not be angry. I also quit smoking about 40 some odd days ago and I’ve been a little pissed off ever since, but that’s to be expected.

_I Alwayz Feel Anqry In Everythinq I Do !
I’m Gonna Try Andd OverCome Dis !
If Youh Have This Problem, Then Please Help Mee,
Or Give Mee Advice Thankz_

SWAQQER_X

I’m finally over my stage of indifference!!!!!
I really think this going to be a beautiful beginning…I’m feeling so much calmer and using other ways to channel my energy. Of course not all of this uncontrollable rage has gone away, but Rome wasn’t built in a day either and i just have to take each day as it comes =)

I’m getting close to my goal, but now an even more dangerous emotion has occurred. Complete indifference. I couldn’t care to laugh, i couldn’t care whether it’s raining or not, i couldn’t care less about anything at all, probably not even if i got run over by a car. This is a bit worrying. I want to care. But i don’t know how to anymore.

and somehow… im not angry anymore!

maybe cutting down on the booze helped a bit :]

I’m tired of feeling angry, irritated, annoyed, or otherwise hacked off all the time.

While I will be irritated, sad, and sometimes depressed, I realize that it doesn’t have to take over my entire life. Not sure how I was able to reduce the anger I once had. I suppose it is a matter of getting older and getting closer to reaching other goals in my life.

There is no secret to learning how to not be angry. I guess it is a matter of acceptance, not avoidance. What helped me was understanding why I was angry, accepting it, and letting things go. I also understood my triggers (drinking too much, lack of sleep, not eating right, stress).

Another thing is that I think before I talk. But I always express my feelings. I don’t hold things in anymore. If you take the time to actually think about what you’re saying, it comes out clearer.

I realize that not only am i angry but I’m terribly sarcastic with my anger. If you get what i mean? When I’m angry i just throw hurtful sarcastic comments which i think is worse than having outbursts of rage . I really don’t know what to do. And on top of that I’m really sad if not bordering on depressed. Life could be worse, i could be a starving child in Africa but if i have such a ‘great life’ and I’m not starving…then why am i so sad?

The past year has not been easy for so many reasons and i really just need to discover how to deal with all of it. It’s been getting better but recently it’s been getting worse and i really don’t know how I’m going to stop right now.It’s really hard.