not obsess about my weight

Recently I have noticed that currently I fit into my skinny clothes…this took me a little by surprise since I haven’t felt “that skinny”. And thinking back to “heavier times” I can’t remember feeling that “heavy”. I have a pair of worn out jeans from these times that I am wearing at home which always makes me realize that I must have weighed quite a lot back then.
My point is that I think it is really strange how often our inner feelings don’t match the real state one is in. I kind of like it, because this has shown me how unrealistic my inner perception of myself is. this supports my believe that when it comes to “delicate” issues one shouldn’t take oneself too seriously…and of course, that a few pounds (in my case it is maybe 10 pounds or so) don’t have anything to do with how fabulous (or “unfabulous”) you feel ;)!

I hope meditation will help with not obsessing!!!

I am obsessing right now…:(, but, instead of analyzing it I will go to sleep now!!!

in the past months I really had not a lot of trouble doing this. but I have to admit that this was because I have lost some weight over the last couple of months which made me very happy. For this I have to add that although I lost the weight through healthy eating and exercising I did not have to put much effort or thought into it, it just happened. I think it has to do with my metabolism, sometimes it seems as if it just works better for some time and then falls back into its old habit.
In recent years I have lost weight like that a couple of times, but I always gained some of the weight back. I blame my metabolism for it but also my mental state of mind. I think that at some point I think I can start eating all the “good stuff” too often because I am thin now. To say it clearly, I get obsessed with thinking about it, I fear gaining back the weight and this makes me overeat.
I have never been a thin girl but with my current weight I like myself. By the way, no worries I am not over-or underweight, my BMI is between 24-23 I don’t really check my weight that much)
For now I would just like to keep the weight I have now. without thinking to hard about it. but I actually like to keep it :(