remember that it is all temporary

I’m back here…wish I could call it home but when I dropped her off she had her husband and her pup greeting her with love and attention….I came home to a cold, dark house. Then I wonder why I hate it here?

If anyone ever tells me again I don’t live in reality I’ll tell them my life in Montana is so real it is in 3D – desolation,desperation and destitution…

I made alot of calls in Missoula with tons of follow up to do. We’ll see what happens! I can’t get too down being back…that would negate all of the upbeat things I did this week.

I ate more in 4 days than I do in a week or more at home.. I love greek so mostly I ate hummus , gyros, tabuli…then my friend likes steaks so we went to the Guy’s Lolo Creek Steak House and we had Italian twice…really miss the diversity of food here.

My friend passed her insurance test so we went to the mall on the way out of town. Dillards was having a drawing for a cool teflon microfiber ameribag- a healthy back bag tote….their slogan is “every bag has a silver lining”.I thought their slogan was really cute and upbeat!

Anyway we left without buying anything and stopped at the China Bowl for a quick bite before we headed out. While finishing our meal the girl from Dillards called me and told me I won the purse drawing.

My fortune cookie said money- good luck will come to you next month and I won the purse within 2 seconds of reading that! The purse carries money so I’m thinking the Universe/God is telling me good things are headed my way! Luckily I am whacky that way and believe in divine signs.

When we went back to Dillards my friend was feeling better so she shopped some…I picked up my purse and I was like a kid at Christmas.

It isn’t that cute but if it is good luck I will carry it every where! :)

from the wilderness comes to an end today. It’s back to the quietness of my life. Sadly,this adventure is ending far to quickly for me.

The one thing this little trip did do was reenforce the fact I am a city girl at heart.

That makes me laugh! I never would have imagined calling my hometown a city. I couldn’t wait to leave when I was a teenager and go see the world! :)

The stuff of life itself is transitory. I am reminded of this every day. Today I had lunch with my friend whose son committed suicide. We were in school together. She’s given up pottery. She gave me her tools! She’s done this before and I gave them back but today she told me she’s done. It broke my heart. Her life now is grief.

On Tuesday I take my SO back to the doctor. I don’t expect good news.

A few weeks ago a man I knew slightly helped me in a LARGE way with a project at work. I saw him again last week. He was 72, a big Santa of a man, funny and with a great heart for people. He was killed yesterday in his own front yard just doing some gardening! Struck by a car. Unbelievably sad. No one expects to go out to do a bit of gardening and get run down in one’s own yard. Just another example of temporary.

or would you rather spend your time and life doing things that make you and those you love happy and smiling?

A new friend of mine here in the wilderness reminds me of how I used to be with grace under pressure. Her business has taken a downturn like all of our businesses and yet she maintains a spirit of optimism that I strive to emulate.

She does nice things for her employees…like appreciation dinners and lunches. She is celebrating the holidays with friends and family.

She is not letting the day to day stress take it’s toll to the point of paralysis where I let it go.

Since I have a choice I am not spending anymore time with misery. :)

Is ill. It’s his heart, it’s beating too fast He’s 73. I hardly know what to think.

I really want to go to Texas for Thanksgiving and see my children.

Life is far too short to be lonely and away from home.

to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe
that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said life would be easy, they
just promised it would be worth it.

‘Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. And enjoy your life.’

I received this in my e-mail this morning and wanted to share it with you.”

I have a new affordable internet advertising venture for Montana businesses that will provide me immediate cash flow. I met with the publisher last weekend and see that this is an exciting project!

I have also decided to renew my real estate license and get on with what I do best…helping people get into their homes. I have been out of that game long enough!

Feeling much better now that I have a definite direction.

that is bouncing through the wilderness came to visit me last night.

Been sleeping most of the day and still feel really bad.