stop my sexual addiction

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.”

they all are jerk balls. I have so much love to give. I wonder if I am ever going to find someone.

my heat is broken once again. I’m ready for the right person to find me.

I am so tempted to fall back into old habits. I found this quote to encourage my spirit:

“Every conquering temptation represents a new fund of moral energy. Every trial endured and weathered in the right spirit makes a soul nobler and stronger than it was before.”

William Butler Yeats

now for about 4 months… I’m waiting for someone worth my time and… heart. What a concept, right? Why has it taken me so long to learn that?

When the soul is neglected, it doesn’t just go away,
it appears symptomatically in obsessions,
addictions, violence and loss of meaning.

Thomas Moore

for something positive. I have decided that i am going to start having positive fantasies…

something i’ve always wanted is a nice romantic date on a boat… or maybe watching the sunset from a boat dock. The clean fantasy comes after that…

why do I continually push myself to the edge?

“Self-respect is the fruit of discipline; the sense of dignity grows with the ability to say no to oneself.”

Abraham J. Heschel

Declaration of getting a backbone:

I will no longer let men over power me
I will no longer be submissive
I am going to confront this problem head-on and I am not going to back down
I am going to value relationships more, realizing that everyone comes into our life for a reason
I am going to strive to have more male friends
I am going to take more pride in who I am, I am beautiful on the inside & out and I have more to offer than sex
I am going to find another outlet when I am bored or lonely
I am going to find another outlet for my sexual urges
I am going to stop looking for the fast fix
I am going to stop watching porn!
I am going to stop having phone sex.
I will respect and honor the beauty of love & devotion
I am not going to have any regrets