This has been a fun week in the creativity department. First of all, I cleaned out the garage, studied my new saw’s instruction/safety manual and did some test runs (without the saw blade), and found plans to make a simple book case which can be expanded on later for a simple desk. Just spending 2 hours doing that made me feel more grounded and true to myself. It was an instant boost to my mood and confidence.

Then, last night I went to a new yoga studio for a yoga class. Yesterday was the first day in the “Year of the Dragon”, so the instructor made up this whole story involving dragons, heroes, horses, eagles, vast valleys, broken down bridges, castles and so on. It was wonderful!! As we would do a pose he would tell us, “ok, now you are an eagle – really fly, really soar with this one!”. My imagination took a minute to get in gear, but once it did it was such a fun class. I couldn’t help smiling from ear to ear during savasana! I’m still glowing. :-D

Those two things have really helped my mood and my confidence. I’m less picky with the husband and feel more open and flexible to life in general. 16 months ago

Some things that come to mind for this:

1) work on wood projects and other crafts/decorating around the house – play table for the nephews??
2) piano
3) cooking new things! 16 months ago

I actually feel like crying if I think of trying to paint or draw something seriously. I can’t think of anything to draw, and I’m really afraid of messing up, especially if I’m actually trying to do well. I don’t want to be criticized either—in fact, I’d rather avoid all feedback and keep it to myself. I tend to think it can’t possibly be good enough to show to anyone. I guess I also can’t help thinking that being creative is for little kids and people who won’t grow up. I wish I could learn how to enjoy being artistic, especially through visual arts. I used to sketch now and then with charcoals and colored pencils. Maybe I should buy a couple of things at an art store and try it out again, just to get started. I’m not going to try to become a master at art, but I do want to gain some skill and, most of all, let myself be creative. 20 months ago