write better

writing sucks!
but i been getting help with my papers
and omg i hate this!
i need to stop texting and spell things out

I’ve always loved words and reading since I was little. When I was younger and asked what I wanted to be when I was older, I would reply, “An author.” I did well at school for creative writing in English, but that was really the only time I did write. But as I grew up and understood a bit more about life, I grew more and more cynical and I left any ideas of writing behind in favour of working out a more achievable goal, like being a secretary. Recently though, I’ve felt like I should try writing and see if there’s any reason why I feel like it’s something I should do – to see if I’m capable of it.

I hear many people say that they love writing, and they are compelled to write all the time. But I’m not like that, and this is where my confusion comes from. I feel like creativity and words are something that should be part of me, but I don’t write that often and I’ve only recently let myself think about it, and so I don’t know how I feel about the actual process of writing. I’ve started getting ideas for some stories, but I can’t seem to work out coherent plots for them all.

I wrote my first ‘short’ story this year – the first creative piece of writing I’ve done for about 4 years – and it turned out really long at roughly 8,000 words. It doesn’t follow the conventional short story format and it seems to be stuck between genres and no one is interested. Only my best friend has read it, and she’s naturally biased. I thought I’d finally have something to be proud of once I’d finished, but I think it’s a bit of a mess.

I honestly worry that I’m the writing equivalent of the people who go on X-Factor and Pop Idol saying they’re the biggest thing since Madonna, and then they open their mouths and sound like a cat in a tumble dryer. So I would dearly love to write better.

I write lazy and incomplete essays when I should be doing research, planning an essay, and making quality work. I know I can write better. Maybe I can start making money.

Now when I was In the sixth grade I had this wonderful teacher that would make us write reports and poems every day. I was getting very tired of writing until I started writing by myself. I loved It once I found my own little world of imagination and freedom to write what I want at home. Ever since I’ve been writing stories on the top of my head in my journals everyday and even now I am writing a book of my own. My advice is go with the flow, exband your imagination, and when you get an idea write It down and in the future you can build up those short stories and make them longer.

Now when I was In the sixth grade I had this wonderful teacher that would make us write reports and poems every day. I was getting very tired of writing until I started writing by myself. I loved It once I found my own little world of imagination and freedom to write what I want at home. Ever since I’ve been writing stories on the top of my head in my journals everyday and even now I am writing a book of my own. My advice is go with the flow, exband your imagination, and when you get an idea write It down and in the future you can build up those short stories and make them longer.

then write better…

I am doing a degree at college and this semseter I chose to do a unit that is includes the ability to improve writing.

I also just got home from a writers group I go to, where we share what we have written and they said my writing is getting better, so I am pretty happy with that.

I plan to have fantastic writing by the end of the year, with the unit grades to prove it.

I want the words that put into emails to flow like some poetic crap that makes the reader completely get into what I’m trying to get across.

So, I thought that I should learn to write better before I’d be able to write my Bestseller. Apparently, I was having memory leaks…

My little sister likes clothes, so she bought some new. At my mother’s place, I still have some stuff stuffed in closets. Since returning from Greece, Laurelin has lived with my mother. Now, the stuff in my closets was in the way of the expansion of her wardrobe. So, my stuff had to go.

While sorting through my stuff with her to select what should go where (and what should go nowhere except into the garbage), we came across a shoe box with much of my accumulated writing from over the years. Later, going through those papers with her, I was very pleasantly surprised.

For example: a while ago, I stumbled upon the practice of freewriting. I had the intention to try to practice this for my new manuscript. Apparently, somehow I had managed to forget that I have applied freewriting techniques for many years in many different styles. I even found about twenty or so pages of prose of extraordinary quality, with proper punctuation and everything written at freewriting speeds. Many other documents contained freewriting experiments which more closely resembled poetry in consistency and style; surprisingly, the “poetry” was often quite good; emo kids might even like it.

Then, I saw rhyming exercises which where so difficult that it surprised me I could already do this some five years ago. The results weren’t fantastic but the constraints were horrible.

And there were letters. Crisp logic, strong one-liners, excellent build-up, etc, etc.

All in all, I saw a lot of things which made me realize that all the negativity which I’ve attracted to my writing skill over the years is complete and utter nonsense. It no longer feels like a lie when, according to the law of attraction, I imagine myself churning out excellent writing at a great pace and with great ease.

Five years ago the image in my writing was very negative while the image of my writing was very positive, whereas, increasingly, the image of my writing turned bleaker and blacker while the image in my writing got lighter and happier. It’s time to reunite the positive self-image with the positive writing. Really. And, in this, I should consider that five years of heavy self-criticism has probably taught me a few new tricks too. :-)

Oooh, and am I having fun with writing!

i want to be a fluffer.