stop being so promiscuous

But it seems to have made me only feel more trapped. I want to stop having affairs and being so damn promiscuous before I mess up my marriage and hurt my husband.

In order to do this, I am going to have to get back into therapy, deal with my issues with my childhood, and put forth a real effort, Oh yeah, and stay off of Blackplanet…

ended up falling for beautiful boy, he went away travelling for 2 months and i thought about him constantly and missed him loads, he came back and i told him how i felt and he said he felt the same. now we are in a proper relationship and im so happy i dont even fancy other boys anymore

its not that im just a massive slag, i’ve been sleeping with beautiful boy for 6-7 months but about a month and a half ago we had “the conversation” and he told me that he really cared about me etc and we said we’d be exclusive and i resolved to just that, but then i met metal boy a month ago and drunkenly fell into bed with him 2 weeks ago, and then again last night. and tonight moody boy, who i was seeing for about a month back in feb, who i really really fell for but who was leaving town for good, is coming back to town for a week and has called me asking if he can see me tonight. and i have said yes. and he’s the best lay eveeerrrr and i know for a 100% FACT im gonna end up in bed with him. but i feel kinda bad about beautiful boy. i shouldn’t have made him think i wasnt going to see other people anymore because now i’m just leading him on and i really dont want to hurt him. but the thing is i really honest to god thought i could be faithful to him! aaaarrrggghhh boys boys boys!!!!!

Gosh I’m horny today. But i’m glad that I didn’t call any unworthy guy to come over and take care of me. I just feel like at this point I bring my property value down by messing with these m*f’ers that don’t deserve it. I guess i’ll continue to handle myself, but I don’t know how long this will last because for me after a while I need the real thing. I guess just like with anything else it takes time to become disciplined.

I’m tired of always lettin any man that asks if he can fuck me, fuck me. I don’t know why I do it, and everytime I tell myself I’m not going to do it anymore, I do it more then I did in the first place… I guess I’m just a nasty hoe, but I really need to stop…