try harder

Putting this into my ‘Stop being so lazy’ goal.

i always build myself up and expect a great outcome and when i dont get it i give up. deep down i know that if i wouldve tried harder i wouldve been able to get it. i need to learn how to apply this to many things. i give up too easily. even though some things are better left alone.

a pictue in my mind of the life i want..but for some reason it seems so out of reach,i know its not but…

I did it. I signed up for Honors classes
The school let me get in immediately because of my grades. They said I cant do math because I basically suck at it, but they gave me Honors US History and Honors English 2&3 =]
I feel proud I took the first step for once.
Maybe, at the end of the school year of 2009 they’ll call my name and i can be one of those Giddy happy people walking up the asile with my dad taking pictures of me.

Today the school was having an assembly in the auditorium. When they where giving out rewards today I realized something, I had noticed, I was flying through high school with out even trying. I am a sophomore, when I try, I do really good, so good that I could be in honors. But the thing is I don’t take honors classes because I want to make it through easily. When I saw all them people go up there and get their award I noticed, they where all the same people who have been recognized by the schools since 5th grade.

I now realize, I cant be taking the easy way anymore. I want a award for once, I want my parents to be proud of like their was proud of them. I want to take Honors, and for once be proud of my self. Try harder, so when they call my name out loud and tell me to come get my certificate, ill be able to smile and for once say I deserved it.

I was partaking in Lent and now that it’s over, found myself finally giving in to the temptation of the computer. I realized while on it for the majority of my day today, that it doesn’t matter whether or not I abstain from it; I still don’t get much accomplished in my day (or week, for that matter)! I need to stop procrastinating.

I studied for 6 hours on Saturday, and 10 hours yesterday. That’s an equivalent of two days work for one stupid test. Hopefully it pays off… I need to bring my grade up!!

latley it just seems like so much effort
n idk if things are right

idk if things are gna work out
they most likely wont BUT YOU HAVE TO TRY
” you only fail when you stop trying”

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My resolution for 2008 happens to be “try harder.” For the past few weeks I’ve not been doing so well due to my depression and laziness getting worse all the time but I’m hoping next month will be better!

I’m already trying very hard so I’ll cross this goal off my list. I’m doing the best I can, if I push myself more, I’m sure it won’t be good for me..