Nie Why do I still feel 13? I'm turning 18 in a month for God's sakes...
Everyone seems to have interpreted this goal differently. But I’ve been in a fog for three years and nothing feels real to me. I feel like time doesn’t exist, maybe even like I don’t exist. I read somewhere that it’s a defense mechanism the brain uses to protect you from traumatic events or big emotions, brought on by depression or anxiety. But it’s such a strange, empty feeling. I don’t know how to deal with it, I’m so sick of living life without eyes or a clear head. I want to wake up from it, experience the world the way we’re supposed to.
I feel like those people in the Claritin commercials who are foggy until they ‘peel’ away the fog and then they can live again.
Sadly, there is no Claritin for literally foggy minds…does that even make sense?
Nov 19, 01:51AM PST | 0 comments
is driving me crazy. I want to wake up early, go to the gym and punch things.
Aug 18, 01:25AM PDT | 3 cheers | 1 comment
Sat 27/6 – 5.57
Sun 28/6 – 7.00
Mon 29/6 – 9.30
Tues 30/6 – 8.15
Wed 1/7 – 9.30
Thurs 2/7 – 11.15
Fri 3/7 – 10.00
blerg.
Jul 03, 12:52AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Before I attend to the more literal side of this goal, here is a good post on awareness/awakeness/mindfulness by puredoxyk (who, incidentally, is a brilliant resource for all things relating to polyphasic sleep).
Jun 30, 11:21PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Stuck in limbo for almost a year now. Everyday is the same and just waiting to finally wake up and get back to my life. Just tired really, need to get some real deep sleep and wake up when I want to for a change. Being deployed is just mentally exhausting and tiresome. Need to wake up and start living again!
Feb 18, 07:35AM PST | 0 comments
passes me by while I sleep in apnea…
Jun 24, 2008, 04:21AM PDT | 0 comments
Feb 26, 2008, 07:36PM PST | 0 comments
I want to be the adult i knew I could be when I was 15. I don’t want to crave sleep to escape my reality. I want a life I am proud of and a home I want to be at. Things are only as bad as I choose them to be. I have control, but I forgot how to take it in my own hands. i want to wake up and know that its ok. Life sucks sometimes, but nothing last forever. i know that, I just forgot to believe it
Feb 16, 2008, 03:16PM PST | 4 cheers | 0 comments
in my life when I was fully awake and present without being pulled into the future or dragged back in the past by my wandering mind. A lot of the reading I have been doing lately (Pema Chodron, Thich Nhat Hanh) has made me more aware of ways I can train myself to be more mindful. I want to explore this more.
Dec 03, 2007, 07:06PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments
heaveemetal The questions asked but never known, Which way I'll go
Oct 27, 2007, 07:05AM PDT | 7 cheers | 3 comments
