meditate regularly

Yeah! I did it!

5 days of 10 minutes a day, plus on one day I did two sessions (and on a few others did breath counting to lull myself to sleep).

I just signed up for a six week meditation support group. I am very excited about this and it came at the perfect time when I am actually free on Monday nights!

So let’s try for 10 minutes, 5 times a week.

Count today as 1

I meditate at least 4 times a week for over a month, starting tomorrow, I do meditate but not enough to have what I’d call a positive effect and I’m just not dedicated enough to it. There are numerous positive things in mediation not to mention how calm and lucid I feel after doing it.

But I need to move into more analytical mediation and not just breathing meditation. So that’s an important one for me.

I love meditating but never can stick with doing it all the time.

why do I fight what fixes me inside? heh

I think that I need to start meditating in order to achieve better peace of mind, especially considering how stressed out the stats course was making me, now I’m fed up with job hunting. I’ve only meditated a few times before but it was very calming and relaxing. Would like to do some Tonglen meditation as well, imagining oneself breathing in the suffering of others and then exhaling peacefulness and happiness. (Whitney would almost certainly be my object of meditation for this practice :)

There is so many resources on you tube to help you meditate.

I try to start doing it from today on. I haven’t been focused lately. I noticed a decline in my ability to concentrate and my sleeping- and eating-habits have been weird too. I think I am stressed and hyper at the same time. This, I think, is never a good combination. I can’t tell exactly how but I am out of balance and thus, in need of meditation!
I know it can be hard to do, especially with me being in the state I am in right now, but fortunately I have experienced times when I was happy, balanced and at peace with myself and the outside world “just” because I followed these common good habits like exercising, eating well, focusing on the present and sleeping enough. This really helps so much!
And right now, as I hang here in my comfy chair without truly enjoying myself, I really want to get back into that state!!!

I did a chakra meditation tonight and it was interesting. I don’t know that I fully believe there are these specific “energy centers” of the body, but I did the meditation anyway which walked me through all the main chakras.

What I found truly interesting was when I reached my heart chakra. It felt heavy somehow. And not necessary in a bad or sad way, just heavy. Like a box full of all your old favorite books. It’s heavy and a pain to haul around, but you don’t mind. I don’t know. That’s what my heart chakra felt like for some reason.

The thought intrigued me, so I felt the need to document it here. :P

Ok, done for now!