do something that scares me everyday

What am I scared of? As usual, confrontational things…

I’ve been wanting to go the gym here but since I haven’t gone yet and it’d be my first time I’ve been avoiding it like the plague since I found out they need to activate my card and I have no one to go with. Lame, I know. I need to just push myself to go down there and at least run on the treadmill for a while to get comfortable with the place.

Another fear that seems to be rising is my need to call/confront career services. I need to call them and ask them questions so I can get things in order and I feel like I’m procrastinating. I need to at least call tomorrow and maybe find out where it is and head down for a visit.

You get nowhere in life playing it safe, being just in your comfort zone.

I want my life to change. However, I am scared of pretty much everything. Most things carry a risk of failure and rejection and that scares me.

I occasionally do really courageous things and it does get easier, but I forget my strength and courage at other times.

I am going to be really brave. Every day I will do something that makes me uncomfortable and uneasy. Not dangerous life threatening things, just things I don’t want to do.

This is how I will build up my confidence, get used to dealing with rejection and change my views on the world to more realistic ones.

I called the admissions person yesterday and I’m so glad I did. It ended up being an important call and she was cheerful so it went well.

Ok so I realised the other day that my life has been so dull lately. Most of my focus has mainly been on school and getting into uni. It’s sort of as if I’ve just been sitting in a ‘waiting room’, expecting to do something exciting some time soon, but never getting round to it. I can’t remember the last time I had an adrenaline rush from doing something scary (apart from exams). This has sort of turned me into a coward. I’ve become scared if talking to strangers and can’t remember the last time I made new friends. So my new goal is to do something scary everyday for at least a month. It will also be a great way of doing things I’ve been putting of.
However I need ideas of what scary things I could do. So if you have any dares for me, please share.

I attacked all of my goals head-on (instead of being lazy and doing nothing :P).

I talked to a guy that I have not talked to in a long time.

Sometimes it IS hard to find things to do every day that are scary, but without really thinking about it all the time, I think I’ve got much better at this. Not enough to tick it off just yet, but I’ve found that just by taking opportunities and doing things I’m iffy about even if I’m scared, I have done loads of stuff that I’m scared of, and I think it’s making me a better person. So never mind if it’s one thing a day or not… just take a few leaps and see where it leads you :)

today i rode on a kids (i barily knew him) moped. it was awesome. I was scared at first but it was the funnest thing i’ve done all summer!

i wanted to do something that scares me everyday, but i haven’t found something everyday. oh well. i guess i just need to look harder and not rule out some things cuz they’re TOO scary. maybe i should just get over the major scariness and do it. but some things are really, really, really scary….

My scary thing today: checked the balance in my checking account. Let’s just say that I spent lunch hour crying in my office…