talk to my brother more

I love learning new things about my brother and being involved in his life. Sometimes I feel like we aren’t close enough or that I’m missing something important. I need to make it a goal to talk to him every week…even if it’s just to say hi!

As horrible as it is. I miss fighting with him and just the feeling of seeing each other TOO much. :(

I missed him a lot since I’ve been back down here.

my brother is going off to iraq soon, he’s in the army. it was (potentially) the last time we may see him when he just now came home on leave.

anyways, we were cool when we were kids, but it turned somewhat sour. we argued a lot more and physically fought. i was bitter and angry with him for the longest time. i felt like i never had an older brother growing up. i’m almost 20 now and it was still akward having convos with him. i think it’s sad how i can talk to my boyfriend a lot easier and do things with him then my older brother.

but i was telling my therapist about this and how much this relationship bothers me and she thought that i should talk to him about all that i was feeling. i was skeptical. i told her i would.

every time i tried to talk to him while he was here i felt tears surfacing. i really didnt think i could do it.

on the last night it was my last chance, we talked. and it was a long time too. i said it all. and i found so much closure and understanding to what i was feeling for all these years.

i have to say this was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life!

i now can honestly say i can talk to him without feeling bad, self-concious, or awkward.

i now have a better relationship with my older brother.

My brother and I are actually taking a class together, even though we go to separate colleges. I get up every Tuesday/Thursday and make the trek to his school. We even sit by each other in class.

My brother had offered to take me to a casino in AC to play some poker because he lives 10 minutes from there. I’ve been way too intimidated to go before. We started off playing 2-4, where I lost 40 bucks quickly. We always play poker when the family gets together, but my brother showed me everything I’d need to know to play at the tables. I entered a 100 dollar tournament with him. I was so, so, so nervous! But I did pretty well…about 64 out of 150-something. He lasted a little bit longer. As awesome as that experience was, my brother’s interaction with me was equally as exciting. I am so happy with how the weekend went.

My brother was in Iraq so talking to him was tough.
Yesterday he returned home and I can’t even say how excited I am!

Things have been steadily going better. He came to my graduation and my graduation party. Not only that but he bought a Mustang convertible and at my party offered for me to give it a test drive before anyone else. I think we both appreciate each other more. I appreciate the fact that he’s not always about talking all the time and he appreciates the fact that I want more communication. I’m pretty content for now.

my brother and i are only 2 years apart but i feel so far away from him. i don’t feel like we’ve had a close connection since we were little. he drifted from me during our teenage years and started to do his own thing. now he lives in new jersey and i miss him so much! i want to be close to him but i don’t know how. we don’t have anything in common. i’m 21 and he’s 23 and we’re direct opposites. he’s a socialite/clubber type, and i’m a quiet loner. i try to be social with him but it’s so hard. i don’t know what to do :-(

I will continue as long as he will let me