find my career

i think that i maybe interested in the medical field and my second choice is teaching.

-i am going to find colleges and programs and plan to apply to some and see if i get into them.

-i am going to keep applying for jobs that are related and might give me an idea of what the career is like

hopefully by fall 2010 i’ll be on my way to my career

Phew! Did pass my comps, and walked at graduation. Now waiting for diploma in mail so it feels real. Hmm…what now?

I have a BA in English, a MA in Education, and I have let my Language Arts 7-12 license expire because I was never hired for a full time teaching position. I did finally take my comps exam to finish my Masters (after 5 years of waiting) and now I am waiting for the results to find out if I passed (should be in this week). I have been waiting tables for the last five years at the same place, and I absolutely hate serving food. I started serving so my wife could finish her schooling for her dream job while still being able to have a flexible enough job for us to raise our son w/o daycare. Now she’s been done with school for a year, our son is almost done with kindergarten, and I should be chomping at the bit to get out there and succeed. But I’m so damned depressed, and I have no idea what to do with myself. I feel like I’m in a holding pattern, waiting for the results to my test. Maybe I’ll feel more confident/energized when I get the results back.

I thought no one was going to hire me after I graduated from college. And they almost didn’t. Apparently, this company thought someone else was better cut out for the job than me and they offered them a position first. After things didn’t work out, they decided to give me a try. I’m their hardest working employee to date and I know for sure I’m going to go far in the company. It’s for myself but also to prove that they were wrong for not choosing to hire me to begin with!

I keep thinking of giving up the artist thing and going back to school to do a trade, or some kind of certificate course. I could be a great secretary and still create on the side. I feel like I’m getting old. I want to start a family, have a vehicle, eat with all the food groups. Not possible so far. It’s depressing, but I almost feel like I asked for it.

See, the thing is I have skills. I have smarts. I can be in photography, or coaching, or writing, working with people. I just need to focus and channel all these things into something I love. I have to love what it is I am doing for work or I will be miserable. I know that now. I didn’t appreciate that fact before. So the challenge to myself is to go after it. Put myself out there and make it happen.

i do an english degree. i don’t want to teach until i’m older. hmm. what exactly have i qualified myself for? nada it seems. have to start dusting off those key skills and personal qualities….