stop skipping class

I skip a lot, but that’s because i find the lessons boring.
The only one i don’t skip is art.

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I haven’t been skipping much at all, and when I have skipped, it’s been responsibly – knowing exactly what I’m missing beforehand.
Hooray!

I mean what about when I have a real job someday? My current irresponsible attitude would be completely unacceptable. Plus, I’m getting my teaching certificate and preparing to be a high school teacher (LOL! oh the irony) and what kind of example am I setting? I’m a terrible role model.

I would say my self-worth is directly linked to how often I skip classes. I just feel so bad about it. My parents are paying in cash for my ENTIRE college education at the University of Texas, room, board, tuition, books, everything and it’s EXPENSIVE. Whenever I skip class I think of all the people who wish they had my kind of opportunities. I think of all the people who work hard in school and deserve my parents’ money more than I do.

Also, I skip class, and then naturally I do worse on the tests for those classes and I realize how 100% my fault it is and start kicking myself. I mean how insane is that, you pay for the classes and then you don’t even attend?! It’s so dumb of me, but somehow it’s like I just can’t get my act together, like I’ll stay up late working on some project and then sleep through my first class or two accidentally, and then I’ve procrastinated on the assignment for the class that I can still go to, so I start working on it, and then I don’t finish in time, and then I feel guilty about being unprepared, so I just avoid the situation and skip it.

I know it’s ridiculous, but it’s so easy to not go. And then afterwards I just feel sick about the whole thing and about myself. My parents are like “why are your grades low?” and I always complain about classes being hard, and they are, but good grades aren’t unachievable. Even in my hardest classes, SOMEONE is making an A because they’re putting in the effort. That person needs to be me.

ok so last week was almost perfect…until friday. i missed fourth period. BUT TOMORROW IS A NEW WEEK. so its a fresh start!!

Ugh. I skipped my tutorial today because I was late and I hate walking into class late and so I skipped it. Fuck. It’s okay. It’s not like there was homework to hand in, only homework to get back and I know I did not do well on that homework. Anyway, the answer key has been posted to that one. Grrr. On top of not skipping, I should try not to be late!!!

When did I become such a skipper????!?

I skipped two classes last week in favor of attempting to finish some homework. =(

I went to all my classes today. Good for me. I also caught up a bit with the readings for semantics, although, the lecture nearly killed me today. So boring, yet so confusing. I feel I will have to self-teach for most of the course. Ah well.

Tomorrow…
I have one tutorial and one lecture. Must go to the tutorial since I missed it two weeks in a row. Should try to finish the book tonight! Otherwise, I sit there squeamish in case I feel the pressure to “participate” – hate that! As for the lecture, it’s three damn hours long! Have not read the book! Most behind on readings for this class. Will consider rolling a spliff to smoke to enhance the learning experience. LOL. It’s not a bad idea for this class (19th century American Lit).

Monday (yesterday) – had one tutorial. I went. Check.

Tuesday (today) – had two lectures. I went to both. Check.

Wednesday (tomorrow) – two lectures and a tutorial. Will go to all.

Damn… now I can’t wait for reading week because I have to catch up majorly on readings. At least, I am trying no to be absent. Doing fine so far… baby steps.

skipped my english class for two days.. this is so bad.