So I have 77 missed excused lessons and 9 unexcused lessons (which somehow are more than even I myself calculated) on my last school certificate. Well, I’m not angry about it. I was angry all the time at myself. Now there are the consequences… Somehow it even has a pleasing effect o.O

The only thing that keeps bothering me is how it will turn out next year.

First thing I need to handle is getting my driver’s license so that I can drive to school or the station once I have difficulties catching the bus for whatever reason.

Wish me luck.

I wanna be realistic, aware and competent on this. 23 months ago

..... I did it again and feel horrible and worthless!

However it definitely has gotten better… my father said so, too (although he’s kind of strict on that! – but I still have to deal with it for myself).

The problem is: I often skip math. And I’ve gotten really bad in math. And I fear reactions of my math colleagues and and my teacher. No, not even reactions, because there aren’t often any. But the thoughts… What image do they have of me incompetent fool ._. It’s so depressing

Yet I started this and the only one who can end this is me.

I tried to sooth the pain it produces. Well, if you try so, too -> Don’t! It will feel even worse once you fail again.

“Sadness is a blessing” ... Pain, too. Don’t surpress it.

If you feel like in hell, because of your mistake, feel that way until the feeling goes away by itself. It will support your change for the better…

Stay strong, community <3 1 year ago