I will always care.
They raised me to care.

But I shouldn’t stress about it.

I know they love me…
I know they are proud.

I guess I still have some of that sibling rivalry competition stuff going on and I need some award.

I might be completely crazy. 6 years ago

I’m 25 and I still live in fear of my father. Maybe I wouldn’t be so afraid if I didn’t rely on them for money, but at this point—they know and I know – I don’t have much choice. Unless suddenly the economy starts doing really well AND editing starts paying more than the sad pittance it currently does.

But really, I need to get over it. I recognized this issue two years ago. NOW is the time to cut them off. 6 years ago