fall in love with a man who truly thinks I am special and unique

because this is not a goal, it is a hope over which I have no control. I only get sadder every time I read my goals and see progress in other areas (where I can actually take action and do something) and not in this one. I’m not sad because I’m alone, actually being alone is quite nice. Never been a big fan of relationships for the sake of relationships. Who needs that? What I’m looking for is that special person especially meant for me (and me for him). That person who thinks I am special and unique, who feels like he found a treasure after a long quest. It’s not me who decides whether this is going to happen or not, though. So I’m removing this from my list of goals in order to focus on those areas I can do something about.

Ok, it is officially my birthday (it’s 1:16 a.m. here).

I have undergone some very hard times since my last b-day. Most of all, the pain for not being valued as important as I valued the man I was with. This broke my heart, really it did, day by day.

I got over my last relationship, I’m gonna tag that goal as “done”. I don’t feel all that anger any more. Not even sadness. Just the desire to turn over a new leaf.

Today, I want to make a wish: to fall in love (only) with a man who TRULY and deeply realizes I’m “the one”, that precious one he was looking for.

If I can’t have this, I prefer to stay single, which is a lovely condition per se. I don’t want my heart to be broken again, as far as possible. So, if pain is sometimes inevitable, let it at least be worth the person.