Not get depressed because _____________ me

I have came to the realization that I have been wanted. I just soemtimes have my eyes closed as to who wanted me. I wanted paticular ones to want me not necessarily a good choice but now I have my blinders off and I am not going to get depressed about this any longer.

I don’t understand why I am not in a relationship. I sometimes feel like no man wants me. I know that’s not totally ture because I have dated just nothing ever comes of anything. I don’t know why that is. The last guy I dated, well he name is Rob and I have known him for over 5 years. We worked together forever and we would run into each other and sometimes he would call and catch up. Well last spring I suppose we started to try and date. We had a good time and things just seem to get better and we had fun together. Well about 6 months into “dating” I told him one night that “I had found myself thinking about him lately”. That’s all I said was that I had caught myself thinking about him. Well it freaked him out and he ran!! WTF?
I mean really I thought that was such a harmless thing to say. But I guess know. I know it’s what bothered him because I called him like a month later and ask. And he actually said yes! That me telling him something that small made him panic and run! I just don’t know what to do. I am about at the point that I don’t even want to try again. It just seems like nothing ever comes of anything. And that I always end up getting hurt. Even if it’s just a small sting I always end up getting hurt. Would someone please tell what I am doing wrong or what the worl I should do???? Is there even anything about me to like? I think there is. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Help!

So I suppose I am becoming a huge cycnic in this dept. And I don’t much see that many reasons to not feel this way. Maybe one day it will happen but I am not expecting it to. It’s been to crazy of a journey so far. I love the journey I am on and think for now I just need to pick differnet paths.

i am fighting it hard right niw i just got the blow off email from “A” so date a guy for a few months very casually only saw each other like 4 times. and then bang!! ugh is the Mr. Right even out there???

I do not have to have a man in my life to feel complete. But I want a man in my life to share moments with! That’s what I want. Someone to laugh with me and hold me and talk about all of life’s little things with. But no one wants me. The last 4 guys I have dated just dissappeared. No blow off phone call email or nothing. They will just stop calling/returning calls. And I never know what happened. But I just need to come to the relization that I am not wanted and will not be wanted and try real damn hard to not get depressed over that.