drink in moderation

The last time I drank I was humiliated. My friend was drunk too and called my teenage daughter to pick me up. I wish I could have slept it off without her ever having to find out. I never want to experience that again. She was so angry with me and rightly so.

I don’t drink every day, but lately I’ve become a binge drinker. I’m not going to do that any more.

My first step is to not drink any more this month. I will decide my next step after I make it through the month.

I haven’t been drinking at all, but I want to make sure I can still do this in the midst of a wild kegger or while my friends are getting smashed at the bar and still just have one or two drinks. Three maximum.

I don’t want to get falling down drunk ever again.

The real test will be the music festival this weekend.

I drank a bottle of wine last night…..

back to moderation as of today!!

i would like to be able to have a glass of wine with dinner without proceeding to finish the bottle and then look for more. Once i start it’s like i am on a mission!

i don’t want to erase drinking! I’m going to try and control it!

I don’t go out too too often (maybe only once a week or so; but in the summer, since I spend my weekends at the booziest beach ever – all bets are off there!) – but when I do go out, a lot of times I am a total lush. It’s ridiculous. I don’t go out with the intention to get retarded, but it just sort of happens. I black out pretty easily, if not black out – will definitely “brown out” (i.e. forget parts of the night). I always get myself home, and recently I’ve been taking steps to avoid blacking out – but I still just sort of mentally feel like shit the next day, even if I didn’t do anything to feel badly about (e.g. like lose something; make out with someone I wouldn’t have sober; be caught in a ton of incriminating/embarrassing photos – damn digital cameras and EVERYONE who brings them out each night). Alcohol is definitely a depressant for me… But at the same time, it’s such a big part of my social life that I can’t totally stop drinking. So I think I need to just make sure I don’t binge too much when I do go out. Maybe stick to only beer. No shots. Definitely no whiskey!!! (I always know it’s going to be “one of those nights” when I start the night with a couple shots of JD. Not helpful!) No vodka on the rocks. Beer. Sure I’ll have to pee a lot more often but that’s better than blacking out, right? sigh*

Let’s see… since I’ve taken this on, the following has happened:

1. I have more money that I’m not pissing away
2. My mornings are now less hellish
3. I have a general sense of control over my life
4. I’ve become quite a bit more successful in accomplishing my goals and desires

This is not to say that I don’t have a couple beers here and there. I just live my life a lot more maturely now.

I’m getting a little shindig together tonight at Charbert's Bar, and I’m sure my friends will be interested in buying me lots of free drinks.

My main goal is to only have a drink or two when I do drink. This will help me regulate my sleep and get the most out of life.

“The first cup for thirst, the second for pleasure, the third for intemperance, and the rest for madness.” – Anacharsis

I’ve started ordering all highballs in a tall glass. This way I stay pleasantly drunk all night, and I don’t go overboard. Only singles from now on, no more doubles (or triples… yikes.)