Develop a better relationship with God

This is an on going thing for me, so I don’t think I’ll ever be done with it. Some days I just want to get up and go without any prayer or worship…. but like I said, it’s and ongoing, uphill battle. It’s worth it though… well worth it.

I need strength and guidence more than ever.
Especially strength.

Please let her know I love her so.
Because I am dreading not having her in my life.
Please speak to her heart. And let her see to truth.

I can’t bare this hurting anymore.

There are several reasons why I don’t want to go to church today… I have a huge headache, my bed is warm, I have some cleaning to do, I have to run some errands, I feel judged when I go there, I will see my old friends… the ones I no longer hang out with.
But in about 10 minutes, I will drag my butt to my room, change out of my jammies, brush my teeth and head out the door to church.

Im still going on this one, but i fear I have lost my way. I am still reading my bible every night, and every now and again I find something inspiring, but those moments feel few and far between…

The only praying Ive been doing is the little one before I sleep, I don’t sleep well unless I do that. I have prayed to god about my current situation and again, I don’t want to be one of those people who only come to god in need…

I am so far from god right now. Well not as far as I could be but we havent spoken in awhile..

i went to fill out a job app. today, because i’m looking for a new one, and i passed a church on the way. so on the way back home i decided to go in and pray. i met the pastor. he is the one who let me in. we talked for a while and i went to the alter to pray. he gave me a dvd to take home and watch. i watched the 1st chapter of his mini series called a better you and some of the things i prayed about at the alter he said to pray about in his sermon. amazing! it’s not ironic at all. God is really working on me. I love it!

everyday i wake up thinking that i am going to do the right thing. i am going to eliminate all of the people and things that are bringing me down. and everyday i fail to do that. it’s hard for me to be mean to lovedones, but i do know that i need to think about my future. i need help. i can’t do this alone. there are so many distractions in my life. i’m happy that i have a support system here. thanks guys.

When something is implicit, it means that it comes naturally without even thinking, like breathing.
I want to implicitly turn to God everytime I’m failng, or searching, or scared. Right now I turn to myself, which isnt worknig for me… Im not that stable of a person, alot of the time I feel like driving somewhere and starting a new life somewhere else…
Turning to God is what I want to do. It starts with prayer and reading the bible. I guess its all baby steps…

Are closer. I pray, God has helped me with this weight loss, He helped me to get my first job. Because he told me not to worry and that everything will be okay, Just trust him. And i did and Ive been succesful thus far. My nightmares have stopped, I no longer have chest pains, And Im gaining control of my life overall. And I only have 1 person to thank for that. :)