Feel attractive again

i never thought i would feel this way again. though i knew if i’d felt like this before, it was definitely possible. i guess just thinking positives thoughts really helped. every time i was about to put myself down i just turned the negative thoughts into positive thoughts and it ended upw orking after a month or two, i’m back to me. there are always moments when i’m not sure about what to do when i can’t decide what to wear or i get rejected and i feel like complete and utter shit but it’s really mind over matter and once i started to realize that, it all just kinda fell into place.
not only do i feel attractive but i also feel happier.

Although in all honesty, the ‘again’ part of the goal was slightly misleading. I took this goal from someone else’s list way back when and for me it probably should have just been a two work goal of ‘feel attractive’ because again would indicate that there was a time during which I had actually felt that way in the past and that simply was not true. But today I actually do…my hair is just thrown up in a ponytail and I’m sure (though I haven’t looked) that by this time of the day I don’t have a bit of make-up left on my face…but I still feel confident in how I look…because I know that it’s exactly as God made me, and what more could I ask for?

I’ve been doing a lot of self-discovery and re-evaluating the self critical way I view myself and trying to substitute it with some more positive thoughts and it’s starting to work a little.

I guess this goes hand in hand with improving my self esteem. I’m not the size/shape I want to be after having my daughter and the extra weight makes me feel unattractive. I also feel as though I must be missing something if the person who was supposed to love and want only me keeps seeking outside relationships with other women. Who knows what that something is, but I thought I was a good woman as far as everything else goes…so maybe its a physical thing. I just want to feel attractive again!

This one links into the wanting to lose weight ‘thing’.

I’ve only ever had 2 serious relationships, and I’ve never been the girl who gets approached when she’s out and complimented or whatever..

My last boyfriend showered me with compliments, lovely guy and all, but I don’t think I hear compliments anymore. I consider them insincere and false, because there’s no way what I see in the mirror can correspond with them.

All I see are faults, especially since I put on so much weight. I won’t go too drastically into the self pity cycle and start listing all of my faults, waste of my time and yours.

Anyway, the only thing to do here is get to the stage where I can face that mirror and finally feel acceptable again. So weight loss and a new wardrobe methinks… I’m actually quite ok with my hair, but maybe a new haircut in the end too, just to cement the new me :)

...this goal is completed. LOL, I guess we’ll see, huh?

Since the weekend, I’ve been feeling pretty good about myself, and I think that I can cross this goal off the list.

Remember that we are fabulous, and I hope you all have a great day.

Is it that I don’t have willpower? I can be so lazy. I don’t want some supermodel body, but I have the potential to be healthy and good looking, at least to myself. I have a membership to a healthclub that I pay for and I usually never go. I need a workout buddy. I need to suck it up. I want to be healthy and then I will feel attractive.

Seems like I’m on and off with it…but I’m taking some steps to improve some of the things I’m not satisfied with so that I can accomplish this goal.

that this week will be a pretty good week for me (which can only mean that at some point, it’s gonna go downhill, lol), and I’m feeling pretty attractive. Bought some clothes that compliment my figure, and I’m gonna try to be really confident in them! I might have to “re-add” that goal to my list, haha! I hope that I can go out this weekend…..

I’ve really made an effort to see the beauty that is within myself. It’s been a good thing. I’m trying to remain positive this week, and it hasn’t been bad so far. So, I’m keeping my fingers crossed.