Meditate Every Morning I Get Up

My life has changed tremendously after marriage. Not feeling that lonely any more and more financially stable, I do not feel that much need for spiritual inquiry any more. However, at the back of my mind, I am wondering whether this laziness will end up biting my tail.

I thought of my late teacher at the temple today. She died of cancer a couple of years ago. Before she left, she shared a lot about her acceptance of death. She asked us to think about how we are going to spend out lives, because one day we would need to face death as well. Yes, how?

May I start this day with my heart filled with hope, love, and joy!

I have been using tarot cards as a tool to deepen my meditation. lol. I love displaying the beautiful depictions of mystical symbols and figures on the carpet. It seems that there is a mystical power in the universe with a high intelligence that moves everything around us. It scares me sometimes that I am attracted to such a power. But reading the tarot cards helps me understand a lot about myself. I’m most attracted to the devil card today. Perhaps I’m a devil, who knows. But it’s not too bad to create opportunities to transcend limitations from darkness and chaos. :)

My teacher is diagonosed with cancer. But she chooses to give up treatments because she chooses a short, quality life instead of a longer life in pain. I witnessed the death of my grandma and grandpas, I feared death. But now I am bewildered with the meaning of life.

There used to be a group of pigs who always complained about everything when they gathered for “happy hours.” One pig decided to be a happy pig and chose to focus on the positive things inside of her. So she also chose to see the best in everything and everybody. So the happiness in her grew so big that it was spread to other pigs; then to other animals, then to everybody.. :) I love the cute pictures in the little book called “The Happy Pig.” :)

The Queen of Swords does not want to wait and see what others would think, say or do. She knows what she wants and how to get it. She doesn’t ask permission or even subject herself to much influence. There are times in life when no one can take care of you as well as you can. Leave sentimentality behind and take action. Make important decisions for yourself because it’s up to you. You are the final judge.

This is what I wish for:

I have many birthday wishes, lol, probably I will need more than one cake, and I will have to work out relentlessly for a couple of days to rid all the callories.

But here is my list of wishes:

1. I have realized that a relationship is far from satisfying if a man does not respect you, no matter how much he says that he loves you. So, I will develop self-respect and self-esteem. Stop guessing the score a man rates me!

2. As an old story says, if you give a hungry man a fish, you feed him for one day; if you teach him how to fish, he won’t go hungry for a life time. I will learn how to respect my mistakes and make courageous decisions.

3. Think big and about potentials.. :)

lol. Hope that ginie can grant me all three wishes.. :)

It has been several days that the tarot cards gave a “let go of the past” reading:

“Judgment in this position advises that you allow yourself to grow, transform and release hidden potentials within yourself. Divest yourself of fruitless endeavors without neglecting your duties. At the same time, invest your energies in new growth.”

Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.”

This March 2007 photo released by the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration, shows Dr. Chris Wilson of NOAA’s Alaska Fisheries Science Center in Seattle, Wash., holding a 38-inch ruler up to a giant shortraker.