Think less and do more

I need to stop thinking about what he will think of me and actually do what I want about the situation.

the listmaking, i mean! i find that when i’m writing down way more things than i’m actually doing, it means i’m unfocussed and stressed out, not managing my time well.

i have to really really watch this…minutes, seconds, anything, many times i don’t need that list.

one of the ways i try to not do this too badly is just pick one or two key goals in a day (or a few on the weekend) and highlight them. this makes me feel better.

speaking of which…should get off the computer and do something!

i am still spending too much time waffling, planning, writing stuff down. to a certain extent reflection is good but it’s time to ACT!! i have to stop wasting time. life is too short!!!

I am such a lazy ass..
so basicly. I need to finish most of my goals before summer. After that I can tick it off.

ah yes productivity!

like most people here seem to be, im great at dreaming and planning, writing notes and lists of ideas…but the follow through needs a little work.

reflecting on yesterday’s entry, i didn’t do much last night after all. i went to bed too early as i was exhausted, but im still exhausted.

i lit a candle and listened to music while lying on the couch, that after a bath. lazy, but still better than TV…

Executing is a whole different story. Going to try to change that. Will only give myself credit for doing, not sitting on my butt and strategizing. This paralysis has got to stop.

All I need is to do 1 thing daily; when I say ‘do’ I mean something that is productive in terms of my own priorities: cleaning, creating, learning, exercising, preparing healthy food. Something that will make ME feel better, even if it’s only 15 minutes that I take out of my day.

I already put a ‘block’ on my TV screen yesterday (the first) and have been more productive even having it up for a day. The reason I did this is that I watched WAY too much TV over the holidays. I was at my parent’s, so it was sort of OK, but it didn’t make me feel good about myself in that much excess.

When I came home I stayed in the habit, and then I really felt bad. So let’s see if the ‘block’ helps me be more productive.

I have a funny habit when I am doubtful of the consequences of my actions. 95% of the time I just don’t do whatever I am thinking of doing – very cauteous, very safe. The other 5% – when I am feeling wild and fierce – I tend to squint my eyes for a moment in an effort to shut off my thoughts and just (let) GO.

I get hung up in optimizing – should I load the washing machine first, or the dishwasher? Should I put clothes away or clean out the closet while it’s half empty? I get so caught up in thinking about what to do first that I don’t do anything.

I need to stop trying to do things perfectly and just do them. Less planning, more acting.