talk late into the night with fascinating people

Since I have met Matt. I completely forgot about this goal. I feel like we have incredible conversations every time that we hang out. We talk about
plans
life
race
personality
affirmative action
pretentious philosophy
traveling
materials
drugs
friends
familiy
us
basically all of my favorite things
I feel so silly even posting this. I feel silly feeling this, but mission accomplished. I think.

On Friday, I went to a party. Pat and I ended up talking until 6:00 and trying to watch the sunrise. We talked about crazy things, but it certainly was fascinating. We are hilarious.

I feel as if there are interesting people all around me. I know that this University is bursting with some of the most knowledgeable and hard-working people in the world. How come I haven’t had a late night talk with these fascinating people? No ones coming to me in the library begging to pick my brain. The keggers on weekends have yet to bring about these conversations. What the fuck? I guess there’s just not time.

My brother died 26 years ago, and he was almost 26. He was one of those persons who could get engaged in conversations you don’t want to end. And he was fascinating. People would quote him, his opinions counted. I miss him and I am sorry that it was me who sometimes decided that it was too late and wanted to call it off. On one occasion he said: Don’t go yet. This moment is unique and will not return… I think it was the last time we were on our own and talked late into the night. Did he sense anything? Perhaps not but he was certainly aware of the value of now.

Actually it is someone I wanted to know better and who fascinates me. I simply told him how much I like him, honestly and without adding anything. I told him I understand how the demands of his job and family life are stressing him out. He appreciates my sympathy and is thankful. He is fond of me, too.
One day we may have a long conversation.When he is ready. But we’re friends now and I can wait.

I cannot even remember when was the last time I had such an engaging conversation as to keep me talking late into the night.