be single

I am open to something happening, but I am not relying on it. I am going to be happy being who I am, unconditionally. I don’t need anyone to complete me.

I want to have my time for myself (and my hobbies).
I want to hang out with female friends.
I want to be independent.
I want to be free from the heartache/jealousy/confusion of romance.
I want to be completely boyfriendless and not date at all!

My goal is to not date (or spend time with straight, single guys) until next year… and beyond, hopefully, but at least until January 2009.

always a challenge, but so so worth it to find out who i am again.

i’m doing this at the moment, its scarier than i thought it would be to be honest. I was with my boyfriend for 3 and half years from when i was 17. Now i’m 21 and i’ve been single for 5 months, there have been other guys around but nothing serious. i think its been so great to get my own life back. The ex is a friend now and although he’s in a new relationship i feel no rush to get myself hooked up again, its nice getting to know myself.

i need to live my own life for me not for everyone else. life is too short. people die when you least expect them to. i want to do something good for other people – save at least one person’s life!

... ended a three year relationship and realized that i have never been single since that first boyfriend back in 1989. this year i want to learn how to be ok by myself and who i really am outside of a relationship.

2 years of my life were wasted, and thrown down the drain. Now I’m left with nothing but to pick up the pieces and move on. I was abused, both physically and mentally, for 1 year do to an alcoholic. I was weak and naive, and thought I could help him. I truely believed that I could endure the beatings better than anyone, and I could help him. I was wrong and ended up in the hospital. A scar on my face will remind me of this everyday for the rest of my life. I’m a better person now, I’m a stronger person now. I’m only 22 and I’ve already lived a lifetime. I’m glad the chapter is finally closed in my life, and I’ve already started moving on.

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I have had some kind of boyfriend or another since I was 16. THere have been brief moments of singleness, but I usually find someone to latch onto before too long. But I’m growing up now, and I realize that I REALLY need to be alone for awhile.
I am a strong girl, seemingly confident and independant, but somehow I go out with these dudes that all fit the same profile:
much older than me
broke
amotivated
emotionally clingy
My ex-boyfriend is still living in my house because we moved here together and he’s got no money. I feel bad kicking him out, making him homeless, but I am desperate for solitude. So we exist in this awful awkward scene where I don’t want him around so I yell at him all the time. He leaves the fucking toilet seat up. This is why I need to live alone.
I started dating him right after breaking up with my boyfriend of 3 years, on and off (during the off’s I had other boyfriends).
I find it repulsive and a definite flaw in my character that I have, up till now, not managed to just be alone. I think it’s got something to do with my father divorcing my Mom when I was 6, you know, abandonment issues or something. Anyway, enough for now. I’m going to work on this one.

I have the entire world at my front door. I couldn’t ask for much more than that. No worries. I’m too precious to be left wanting and anyone who feels inclined to make me do so is not worthy of my life.

being single after years of relationship has definitely been one of the scariest, daunting yet most fulfilling experiences of my life.

it just proves that you can do whatever you want, without having to rely on anyone for emotional support and the feeling of independence empowers you.

i know i shouldn’t give credits to myself, but…
i’m so proud of myself for being single.