follow my meal plan

okay so i’m trying to meet my meal plan everyday. actually, i have no choice but to meet my meal plan everyday. but ugh. okay. so, this morning i woke up feeling so-so. i didn’t complete my breakfast…but i made up the calories before lunch. then i didn’t have lunch until 4:45 =[. but i had lunch which is really all that matters. dinner was around 9:30 =[ and i still haven’t been able to finish it. it’s 10:25 now and i’m sitting in front of a bowl of soup and an apple, the last bit of my dinner i haven’t eaten. i also missed both of my snacks today….at 250 calories each. so, after i finish dinner, i have 2 cliff bars to consume. i never thought i would bless the man who found a way to fit 500 calories in the size of less than five ounces of food.

every single day.

I have struggled with this seemingly easy concept forever. History of anorexia and bulimia have screwed with all common sense when it comes to eating right. I am hoping that by posting this for the world to view, I will find the guts, motivation, ambition, or whatever to follow through.

i did it yesterday. but no so good today. must start doing this completely this week.