I found my inspiration. I mean music has always been inside me, but I never felt TRULY inspired.
Recently I lost a very valuable person in my life. I have quite a history with this person. Thanks to the wonderful world of Crystal Meth, they’ve faded away into a realm i wouldn’t follow, let alone can.
I feel lost, angry, hurt, alone, helpless … let’s just say that I FEEL !!
All this feeling is bottled to the top of a bottle that was full long ago. I find that letting this person go, as hard as it will ever be, is the best thing for me. You know I think this is the first time I’ve ever said it.
But if I’m to let them go, I have to let all the history go too. There’s my inspiration.
I don’t ever want someone else to end up on the path I’ve taken. But life isn’t that kind. So I want to help. I want those people that will travel the same path to know they aren’t alone. To show them it’s okay to let go sometimes and that as unlikely as it seems. That is truly the sign of love.
Healing IS possible, but only when you’re ready to let go and HEAL!
I’ll keep you posted for the CD. I think it’s the best idea for me and anyone who ever will go through what I went through.
To end on a positive note …. It WAS worth it, and I’m sorry it has to end. I will love this person forever even if that means going it alone for truly and deeply Love is eternal, just like music.
Always! ; P 18 months ago