stop eating sugar

i’ve been doing well for a long time and now i’m so stressed i just want to say fuck it and buy a whole cake or tub of cookie dough, or a pie to calm me. i feel like an emotional wreck from the stress of work, family and wondering what the hell is going to happen in this relationship. i put on a face mask to prevent me from walking out that door but probably will go later. i really shouldn’t not only because i’m trying to stop my addiction to sugar, but i think it causes me to have irregular bleeding. ever since i’ve stopped eating lots of sugar i’ve been fine. and i haven’t had this much energy in a long time since i stopped eating sugar.

Put my craze to rest, forgo the sweet delight of enjoying sugar frequently. Try to refrain through the week and reward myself once weekly.

For 1 month I will keep away from sugar and try to notice what difference (if any) it makes.

So I just figured I’d go cold-turkey. I didn’t take any sugar in my coffee, resisted the chocolate chip cookie I usually have for first break, and didn’t put any ranch or mustard on my roast beef sandwich. Then I forgot and I ate a piece of banana bread. So everybody… if sugar cravings aren’t constantly reminding you of the lack of sugar, don’t do what I did and just forget you’re cutting out the sweet stuff… because you end up eating the banana bread.

fruit is ok, candy is not. sweetened drinks, cakes, etc. all are not. i want to stay away from all of that for at least a month. november 1st is my goal. i know i’ll probably run into being offered something sweet-especially from friends-so if i feel i absolutely can’t decline, i’ll eat it. that’ll still be a big change from where i am now.

this is day 9 for me. last time i tried i’d set myself a 10-day goal & gave in after 6 or 7. this time the goal is one month (for starters) but WITH MY FAMILY’S HELP. i believe this might help and make a difference. sugar is my “substance” of choice so i need to find a way to cope.

Feeling better today. I’ve had a few cravings – seeing the jelly jar in my fridge made me want a pb & j sandwich so bad – but nothing that I can’t handle so far. I’m worried about this weekend. My family is thinking about a trip to the Chinese buffet, and I am trying to strategize how I will handle it. I’m thinking I will refuse the buffet and just order off the menu. I’ll have to look up what I should order…
Like yesterday, the only sugar I’ve had was in my smoothie (4 oz soy milk = 2 g sugar), and 1/3 cup of barley at lunch (less than 1 g sugar). These were deliberate choices on my part because of what I have on hand right now. I am still pleased with today.
Amazingly, I went another day with no diet soda. I’m stunned. I was afraid I would turn to sugar substitutes to get me through this, so I deliberately went off diet soda. I didn’t know that I would actually be successful at it. Huh, what do you know.

My success today has been that I have had no diet soda. I know, it doesn’t contain sugar, so why is that a success? It’s probably the first day I’ve gone without a diet soda in years.
Today I had 4 oz of soy milk (evaporated cane juice) and 1 tbs of soy sauce (corn syrup). I did eat about 1/3 cup of barley, and wikipedia says it has 0.8 g of sugar per 100 grams. Otherwise, no sugar!
I love to cook. Love. It. All I can think about is what I am going to be cooking over the next week that will fit within this goal…
I feel good about today, just tired (ok, and a little cranky).

This is not about sugar, it’s about control. I know that when night time comes, I will down the pop tart, then the cereal, then the trail mix, then the granola bar, then an ice cream bar, and so on and so on. And it is all so mindless. I’m not the least bit hungry.
Note that I’m not bingeing on crackers or fruit or veggies. It’s all about the sweets.
I am tired of the guilt from these binges. So it begins today with the next piece of food that I choose to eat.

Ok, this is gonna be harder than I anticipated. Yesterday I broke down and ate a peanut butter cup. So, instead of by the day, I see Im going to have to do this by the hour. Each hour passed is an hour I made it.
As I sit here at my desk working, Im REALLY surprised I havent decided to go by the “ten minutes” mark.