not settle for anything less than what I feel is right

I need to speak up, my heart is really heavy at the moment and I just need to say how I feel to a certian someone. That is shutting me out and I am unclear as to why??
It’s all about communicating and feeling that I deserve to be heard, and am worthy as a person.
I also need to find the courage and let go of the fear of rejection to speak my truth. Come on Jillianne you can do it….OHHHHH

Once you have become desperate you simply jump off to the first thing that’s in front of you. It’s time to learn and give ourselves the value that we have and if that means rejecting a thousand things ‘til we get what we aim for.. THEN SO BE IT!

This is not a selfish act this is an act of self love. I am sure we all deserve it.

and i feel pretty horrible about it… i settled for a guy who i thought was going to be able to change me from using other guys because thats what he promised… but in the end he just makes me feel like shit by telling me i need to become more “educated” in certain things and never praises the things i do…

and then he goes on and on about his ex girlfriends… but if i ever mention one of my ex’s, its as though it should have never happened…

i’m tired of falling for the wrong guy… but i have found out what i do wrong when i pick a guy… because they’re never the ones i wanted to begin with… their just the ones that i settled for… not anymore though!!

finally after about 3 years i think it just clicked and something in my mind made it easy to delete nathan. hopefully i can keep this state of mind…