Tell people what I really think

I hate the part of me that questions every single thought that I think about speaking. Sometimes I wish that I would just say what’s on my mind without thinking about it. In other words “to wear my mind where all can see”.

I know this isn’t the best way to live because of all the hurtful things I could say…but it certainly wouldn’t leave any doubt that people knew how I felt.

I’‘m so sick and tired of cleaning up after my shitty housemates. But i need to tell them that. At this point all I do is complain to my boyfriend about how much I dislike them. I need to start telling them that I refuse to put up with the mess and I won’t clean up anymore.
I need new housemates, actually I need NO housemates. It’d be nice only to be accountable for yourself.
Maybe the goal should be to ‘Get rid of my housemates!’

What’s stopping you?

It might be worth thinking about.

You know what! Im through with being nice, Im sick to death of being shit on, im always being told ” Im to nice” “special” loving caring generous, sick of it, what they really mean is ” your a nice girl, but hey we are really gonna just use you and then treat me like shit, cause your too nice to say No or to stick up for yourself, For a while i have been feeling low, due to personal issues in my life, and guess what i thought i found a friend, someone to confide in someone that listens….......

There are times when it’s best not to say anything and just be left wondering if you had. Because wondering if you hadn’t can be just as bad.
Then there’s where what you think crushes someone else and you had no idea it would even bother them.
I’m still for the truth-it’s just rough to always give a straight-up answer because you land in messes of trouble and drama. Some say it’s worth it, guess I still don’t know about that.

I have come to see that telling people what I really think is actually very important. I used to just get myself into trouble by telling people what I thought, but the Lord has been growing me through that and I am now more tactful :)

I’m doing this enough to call it done.

..tell people what i really think of them, it drives me mad when i just agree with people for the sake of it but then i make myself mad because what i really want to be able to say is NO!

In my dream last night (which I don’t remember enough of to even give a rough plot), I was having a tense, serious conversation with someone when my ex walks up and tries to join in. I looked at him, said, “Excuse me, do I know you? This is a private conversation. Please let us finish,” and stared at him until he walked away.

Man, that felt good.

I’m rereading the Something Positive archives and ran across this quote: “If I could say half the things I wanted, I’d either be happy or hanging from a tree branch. Either way, the temptation is unbearable.”

How true, how true…Actually, I am doing really well at this with the ex I’m friends with. Probably because he’s never spared a thought for my feelings when he speaks, but that level of honesty is sometimes a good thing. Things got really awkward a few weeks ago when he confessed that he always figured we’d just say to heck with it and get married. I told him that he killed any chance of that happening with the way he treated me after we broke up. He feels bad about it now. I’ve forgiven him, but I’d be an idiot if I walked face-first into that mistake again.

But now he’s in a rough spot. He’s separated from his girlfriend, but stuck living with her because of their lease. And even if he gets out of the lease, he has nowhere to go—he’d have to save up money first. I’ve offered him my living room floor (he has an air mattress), but he’s using that as a last resort. He’s got a friend that’s offered him a room; if it doesn’t work out, he’ll probably be here by the end of the month.

He told me that the reason he’s hesitant about moving in with me is because he doesn’t want to mooch off me. To be honest, I’m hesitant to take in a roommate…him especially. But I can’t just stand by and let him suffer like this—his home situation is really bad right now. I told him that, for all the rotten things he’s done to me, he’s also one of the few that’s been there when I needed it. And he really has. I’d like to repay the favor. You don’t run across friends like that often.

Of course, what I haven’t told him yet is that I do expect him to pay some sort of rent…maybe $100 a month or so, plus whatever it takes to feed him. I figure we can cross that bridge when we come to it. ::grins::