Be in a happy, healthy relationship

I realize this is the truth. I do want to do this. I want this so “bad” that I have a tendency to destroy all relationships. And also see that I just can’t accept my relationships (all of them, not just the “romantic” ones) for what they are most of the time.

Jigme Datse

I am in a happy, healthy relationship, with a guy who makes me laugh, cooks me food, and isn’t afraid to hold my hand in public. All solid foundations for happiness and health in a relationship. I can feel myself falling in love with him.

The idea of guys and a relationship have just been a constant source of stress. I mean the whole idea of dating, love, marriage, and relationships all sound nice, but I just don’t know if pursuing that goal or even thinking about it is the best thing for me right now.

So lately, guys have been acting particularly strange around me. Ever since I came back from England or at least a month after, they’ve been acting even more strangely. One asked me out. So far, no one who I want to start anything with has asked me. The lastest update is that I think one who is a particularly close friend is being very strange, and I don’t want him to ask me out.

What’s the best way to let the guy get the picture, especially before he asks you, AND not have it be awkward?? big word is awkward. it’s still way awkward with the first guy…

P.S. Is it too much to ask if you can bring me the yummy chocolates from the special chocolate shop?