stay clean and sober

at first i thought i’d never be able to do it. I wasn’t an alcoholic, not a diagnosed one at least, but my uncle was, and my father also has some issues with it, and i used to drink too much too often. Every friday and saturday (during holidays almost every day of the week) i would binge drink in what we call in Spain ‘Botellon’ til throwing u or til all bottles were empty. I had an alcohol poisioning when i was 18, but it didn’t stop me. I broke a tooth. I pushed away some good friends. I had arguments. I got into trouble with the police and also with ‘non-desiderable’ people. I made out with a waiter, a man like 15 years older than me, that i didn’t even like, just so he gave me another drink.
I was so pathetic.
I still am. I got lots of cravings, and sometimes i’d just drink myself to death.
But i’m holding on.

Hello, I am Jon. I am a fucking drunk. I have been unemployed since March and I drink all day every fucking day and get the shakes and sweats when I don’t drink. I have had 84 drinks in the past 24 hours. I HATE HATE HATE drinking. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I were sober. I have lost everything. My own family won’t talk to me. They HATE me!!!!!!!!!! Because I’m a drunk.

and I feel that I am accomplishing it. I have had a 3 week relapse recently, but I am back on the water wagon so to speak. At first, it was really hard….thinking about drinking and using, but as time goes by, and I become grateful for the things that I have from spending the money that I would have otherwise drank or used away, it gets easier by the day.

dave

I am one year sober this month. I cannot say it has been easy. Today, I simply take each day as it comes and make it with out a drink until midnight. The fellowship of A.A. has given me my life back. My old life seems but just a nightmare. I know it was real and it is only one drink away. In my wildest dreams I could only imagine a life as I have today. Please don’t drink, go to meetings, and go through the 12 steps with a sponsor. If I could turn my life around just for today, anyone can. God bless. Tre`.

Seven days- I can’t believe it – this is my last chance so it has to happen – I feel I have the strength to make it happen- I fill up all my free time- The winter’s comin so that will make it tougher- I just can’t slip- I can’t keep thinkin about my past and the disaster it was- I just realized that it was killin me. I need to stay away from one of my housemates who is a prick and stresses me out- I am exited yet cautious about the emotions I feel and what the future holds- One day at a time- One day at a time-

so yeah 9 months being clean, but all my friends are still doing it, im scared i might go bak coz the pressures REALLY strong! i switched it to beer but its still insane!!!! from one addiction to the other!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going on 4 years no Beers…
Gave up Cigs 100 days ago.

temptation is strong… but i dont want the embarrassment, prison time, or the inevitable death that comes with pills and alcohol. maybe when im 21 ill be able to have a drink, or even get drunk once in a while. maybe later, maybe never… i just want to last my probation sentence CLEAN!

90 days today!!!

82 days!!! Some good. Some great. All better than what I remember.