Find that person I used to be

the key is to find the person you used to be and introduce him or her to the person you are now…the person that you used to be (the one you wanted “get back” to has moved along and does not have the space for you anymore)

this a far better response than you could have hoped for…

and now I think it’s time to say that I’ve accomplished this goal. The person that I used to be….was a lot younger, and that isn’t anything I can change. But the person that I thought I lost track of:

1. travels
2. dances
3. is mad about astrology and mythology and philosophy
4. has friends that she can improvise and spar with and be creative with
5. enjoys herself
6. is musical
7. writes
8. cooks

This is the person I always want to be, and when I created this goal, I was knee-deep in school and feeling pretty dull. I feel like 43things was a big part of breaking through this chrysalis…and traveling..and taking a sabbatical…and finishing my classes. All of you on 43things have been a huge source of support for me in getting from that dull-feeling place to how I feel now. So, thank you, thank you, oh, and thanks!!!;)

My old self would never get into trouble. I would hang out with my friends more often than I do now. I played all sorts of sports and was really good at them, the coach’s even said so. I really miss my old self.

...I used to have really tight abs.

Since I put this in as a goal, I received a call from a grade school friend, and an email from a high school buddy. Also, I just remembered an old flame that I haven’t thought about at all in 10 years—very vivid memories. I met him right when I finished undergrad where I studied performance art and philosophy. After that I moved back home, started working, and forgot about how much I enjoyed what I went to school for. I looked his name up and he is living his dream as an improv actor. Very cool. I’m a little envious because I took a detour. What I’m in school for now (acupuncture) is also part of my dream, but sometimes I get frustrated because I don’t have much free time to play and be completely silly.

I just got invited to my high school reunion.

Maybe I feel this way because I’m locked in an airtight cocoon, and my wings aren’t fully formed to beat the shit out of it yet.