stop feeling lonely

Then:

Last year I lost my job. At my last job I had amazing relationships with my co-worker. Now since the job no longer link us together the natural thing is for us do our own thing. I was always grateful to have them around. In happy moments I always would wonder how it would all end; it ended so soon. I guess I clinged to them because my other friendships was on the rocks. I don’t blame other people for relationship problems. But I truly believe that I was a good friend through all my imperfections.

Now:
It probably just selective memory but I feel like everything was better last fall. I had more friends, money, and boyfriend prospect. I had a better living space, job, and grade. Often time after class I become aware of lack of friendship when I can’t find anyone I feel comfortable enough to ask for lunch. Right now Im ultra sensitive so any kind of no I take as an rejection. My rational side says I need to relaxs. I hate how my lonely feelings make me so weak and vunerable. I try to cover it up. I truly feel like you can’t make a friendship happen; becoming friend with another is a natural process. It our responsibility to maintain it. So I think as long as Im worry about making a new friend I will jink myself. Why? Because I be reading to much into simple matters. Well I have one solution in mind. Sibce I’m a senior in college and I feel like new scenery will help. I hope this is so because I don’t want to run away from my problems. This writing is kinda depression. So on the up and up side I know that all this negative energy maybe a delusion. Life flows in cycles; sometime downtime is good. Now Im become more driven, wiser, and god conscious.

I was always so cheerful and energetic. People said I had lots of passion. In high school, people wanted to become my friends. I was never lonely in my life, not until now. Now, I live in USA. I don’t really have any friends here. I have acquaintances…but I just don’t seem to connect with anyone. I am totally and completely unable to make any new friendships here. All my friends are in India. I see them once a year, may be. So I just don’t have anyone here, not even to talk to. Some of the days, before I go to sleep, I realize painfully that I did not utter a single word to anyone that day. I just want to be back in the social fabric again. I want someone to talk to, some one to laugh with me, someone to share things with. I just wish this loneliness would go away !

I live in France. i used to be very popular at high school, lots of friends and a boyfriend. Then i got to college… so many ppl in my classes, i dont seem to connect with anyone. Most of my friends are living abroad, i see them once or twice a year. In the meantime i have no one to talk to, to hug, to love or even to laugh with.
it’s getting a little heavy on my heart

I used to be really popular, have a lot of friends, and girls used to like me. I was your classic skateboarder/surfer dude that everybody loved. Then my friend introduced me to World of Warcraft… I spent 3 years of my life not just playing it in my spare time, but making time to play it. I finally ripped myself away from the game and did a couple things so that it would be near impossible for me to play anymore (uninstalled, changed pass, etc.), and now I’m living in the real world again. However, socially I’m 3 years behind, I’m too out of shape and practice to skateboard and surf again, and I only have 2 friends left who I think might even hate me, since I was declining social invitations to make time for WoW… Now I literally can’t talk to any attractive girls and I can’t socialize with my fellow men either… Sure my family loves me but it’s all tough love, I have nobody who I can hug, nobody I can express my feelings of depression too, and I’ve gone from being confident to extremely shy and lonely. I just feel so empty inside… I’ve become the loser type I used to look down upon… I’ve even felt suicidal lately, but might as well try to fix my life first. So since I have tons of free time and no life I guess I’ll look into this stop feeling lonely sort of thing and hope I get results…

Broke up with fiancee..been a month..live in India..still feel lonely..feel bad at times…esp on weekends..

I’ve had intermittent periods in my life where I didn’t feel lonely…and know that my childhood had an impact of my feeling of isolation. I’ve always found it hard to find like minded people..I used to live in the States and found it easier to relate to others..it just seems that now in my thirties cliques have been firmly established and I find it hard to break into them. I would like to be more content with myself and then I may find I fell less lonely. It is hugely comforting knowing I’m not alone, and there are others out there who are trying to combat these feelings too..

I had such an amazing Valentines day. Now he just wants me to leave him alone. I just want someone to want me… love me… i feel so crap. eughh…

o i’m also losing my friends. i seem to fall out with most of them … except the odd few because everyone has gotten so bitchy. it’s horrible and …meh :(

I had a load of friends. Literally loads. each year i’d have at least about 20 people at my birthday dinner. Recently every single thing i seem to say offends people even though it’s the same things i joke about anyway. my uni friend’s are fine. they’re lovely. but my friends from secondary are just… meh. my bestfriend who i’ve never argued with in the whole 9 years has gotten pissed off at me for the stupidest thing i said which she took the wrong way. for crying out loud! now she’s trying to be nice to me.. saying how we haven’t talked for ages which is unlike us and how she was pissed off and how i hurt her… why the hell would she think i meant that no one would want her if i said, ‘that doesn’t matter,’ when another friend pointed out they might be gay or whatever the guys at her new uni.

the other friend recently got pissed off at me and nagged me for deciding to go on holiday this summer. my ‘bestfriend,’ asked me if we wanted to go to the V fest this year… and i said it’ll depend on money because i’m saving to go on holiday. she said because i went on holiday last year… and how ‘it’d be nice to spend some time with you’re friend’s you know.’ bugger off. why’s she making me feel bad for something i want? she added how she’s glad i’m only going in june/july. considering she said that i can’t say something bitchy back.

constantly arguing with my sister. she’s finally looking like she actually lives with us now. jesus. i know she stays her her bf’s and not at her friend hannah’s. because for somet strange reason her old job means she has to live in hotels 7 days a week despite her having a car and only taking less than half an hr to drive back. retard. everything i say she takes offense.

i feel so crappy… everything i say seems to be offensive and… i don’t feel like i’ve become harsher in what i say… bleh :(

i dont know what to do anymore. i’m just so lonely, sure i’ve got a few friends but they’ve all got other things to do besides hang out. i think i’ve really hit a very low spot in my life, i’ve never felt this way before and its frustrating. i dunno maybe i’m just making a big deal out of nothing but i’ve just never felt this way before

I have felt lonely all my life, and I think that it is getting progressively worse as I GET OLDER. I feel more mature and wiser now but somehow the feelings have just increased. I am just suffering a break up and all my friends are moving on with their lives. I want to do that too. I am seeking employment and a life that I can be proud of. I am stick of these four walls and watching my life slip away. I have no transport and cannot get anywhere without a car as it is too dangerous to walk. I feel trapped and boxed in. Life holds no more joy.