think less & do more

Just about to go and do more now in fact

ive had this on my list for ages and ages. but i dont know where to start, or how to start.
i think when i put this on the list i was over thinking a lot, and just wanted to be free of that and just do.
but now i dont know if i think too much or too little.
i think i’m going to say that most frequently i dont think about things enough before i do them. and the things i most often regret i did with little thought. so this goal is getting retired.

Rather than make entries here, I’ve been journaling. It’s good. I’m getting the freaky thoughts out of the way, then working on my business fairly unfettered. I guess. Anyway I’m doing stuff.

Often when I’m thinking-vs-doing, I’m fretting or second guessing myself somehow. I have something to do I’m nervous about or really don’t want to do for whatever reason… I can totally think myself out of it. I’m not putting it off though, I’m rationally weighing options. uh huh.

I’ve actually been on my way out the door, purse & keys in hand… and literally talked myself out of going. Just put the keys down and didn’t go.

IF I’m paying attention and mindful of what’s up… I can pep talk myself with ‘Don’t think, just do it’ and snap out of this lame headgame.

(Yeah, I talk to myself a lot.)

Even when I was a kid, I was happy to sit in my room and stare at the wall and think about stuff. I like to make plans and charts and research online. I might enjoy that part more than actually carrying out the plan.

But, hey guess what? I’m finding out that if I just sit and plan for a week at my computer… my ass gets wider, my eyes too sensitive to light, my leg cramps up.

How about I get off my butt and do some stuff? ok then… good plan.

It’s been a few weeks since I put my thoughts on “mushy brain syndrome” out there, and it feels like I’ve made some progress on the whole thing.

What started out with ‘well, I’ll just get in to shape’, and ‘well , I’ll finally start paying off that student debt’ has turned into a goal-setting way of life and it’s definitely led to a feeling of empowerment which is very refreshing.

Instead of kicking myself for never doing much of anything, I’m spending my time thinking about what it is that I actually want to do (I get the feeling a lot of people overlook doing this) and how to do make it happen.

It feels good.

I should do this, I should do that, why haven’t I done this yet, I’ve been wanting to do this since…...

The list goes on.

It feels like I’ve been trying holding myself to a level of daily analysis that is quite impossible to function at.

I need to cut the rope to that kind of thinking, because I’m losing all my time to speculation without action (read ‘wasting my time’).

It’s really scary, but I need to scale back my thinking and focus on doing.

My mind is full of negative, frightening, confusing and worrying things.. I need to be more occupied and get things done, possibly even things I am afraid of

it’s not that i want to think less, it’s that i want to think less about silly, unimportant, mind-numbing things. i like to think. i just want to do most of my thinking about cool stuff.

i need to do more, too. i’m definitely a planner and not a doer, so i gotta keep working on that part.

but at least I didn’t think so hard that I thought myself out of what I ended up doing. Which is big for me, considering.