talk it out

I’m feeling so much more focused and clearer on what’s important. Talking to someone totally impartial can help SO MUCH to give perspective on things. Especially someone who is older, wiser, and very kind. I like my therapist a lot because she’s bold enough, and cares enough, to give me her oppinion. Her values seem similar to mine.

Some things I see more clearly now;

Staying or going – whichever I choose WILL be hard, just in different ways.

Staying hasn’t been good for me. I would have to change so much about my life to make it healthy and to move forward if I stayed here (be less isolated, more active, be happy somehow).

It’s ok to be inter-dependent on my husband. She compared what I’ve been going through, without him here, to a grieving process and reassured me that I’ve actually done very well, considering.

She told me I HAVE accomplished a lot (not just stagnated as I believed)and I should be PROUD.

She helped me to view my upcoming move as more of an adventure.

I don’t think this is resolved by any means. However, now I have some tools and a different POV to make sense of it all.

tragety in the therapist’s family has delayed our initial appointment. I could’ve chosen a different therapist, but I have a “feeling” about this one…

be able to begin therapy next week. It can only help!

Weird example…

Getting my new phone to assign photos and ringtones to my contacts…

Talking to the at&t tech guy, I basically taught him how to do it as I talked myself through a process I’d attempted dozens of times in the last weeks. Funny that when I thanked him for his help he said, “You’re welcome,” unironically. He may not have given me tech help, but he did allow me to talk through the problem and thus make sense of it.

I need to remember this principle applies to all kinds of problems for me.