hey there..=) well, yeah, i want to begin a new life! I couldn’t believe i just realized that now when I shoud’ve began my new life earlier! Sheesh! But that’s how life goes, right?
Anyway, let me share to you why I want to begin a new life. Half of my life, I’ve always been underestimated, whether by my friends, my relatives, or other people. They always have the thought of me not making it this year and that I’m going to have to repeat 1st year high school in chinese. It really bothers me that they look down on me like that. Well, not that I have so much pride or anything..but, who would want to be underestimated?! NOBODY! Just as i thought so..
So here’s the thing, I’m not really good in algebra. Yeah, I also get affected about my failing grades, but I’m not that affected as in like obsessed in trying to pass..you know what I mean? Maybe that’s why my friends always think I’m the kind of girl who doesn’t care about anything. Sometimes, they also tease me in a mannner that I am underestimated. I pretend I’m laughing at their silly comments about me, but, deep inside, I really am hurt and annoyed!
I’m a hardcover if you compare me to an open book…I don’t really fancy sharing my thoughts and feelings to anyone – even to my best-est friend, maybe that’s why I feel alone. No worries, God’s here to comfort me and give me pieces of advice! Yeah, God’s here..=)
So, where was I? Oh yeah, so I first realized that I should begin a new life just a few weeks ago, so that I can prove to everybody that I’m not this dumb girl who doesn’t know anything and who doesn’t care about anything. Some of my relatives say I’m witty and smart – street smart that is. Before, I was contented with this wittiness I had, but, today, I made a decision to bring life to my wittiness and add some brainy smarts. If that didn’t come out clear, please forgive me. Haha..;p
For me to prove this, I decided to begin a new life where I would study harder, take my studies more seriously, and most of all, study harder!!..
The other day, I prayed to God to help me be interested in my studies – especially algebra and chinese, but I know God doesn’t just automatically give you the feeling of interest, but gives you the opportunity to be interested. That is why starting today, I will grab every opportunity He gives me. (I got that idea from “Evan Almighty”, who ever said movies didn’t help? This movie surely helped me..=))
Now, I am positively sure that I’m going to pass! All I need is a little bit of hard work, a little pinch of confidence, and a little dash of patience, and I’m off to making it! haha..=)
