be focused

i have 1000000000 great ideas but i never finish any of them because the next great idea comes along before i can finish one. i don’t know how to finish anything or get people to help me. i think too much and some things seem like they would just be too much trouble.
i lose interested quickly.

start to be more focused, to get thing done

i want to be FOCUSED!! especially in my studies.. i felt like i can do better.. or more.. it’ just the problem is i don’t take things seriously.. like now.. im taking up accountancy.. when there are exams.. i just study for the sake of the exam.. without thinking that this will be tht foundation of my future.. that this will be my career..

School is coming to a close for me. How strange. I certainly need to remain focused on the second half of this semester, but I think I got started on the right foot.

Long term, I want to stay focused on continuing my learning (specifically, in terms of cooking and in terms of learning for its own sake). I want to stay focused on my goals to go to Sweden and to make something awesome out of my life. Massive goal, that last one, but I just need to remember to keep my plans in the front of my mind, and not lose myself and my dreams to the daily grind.

Seriously, the most frustrating thing is my inability to focus; it drives me crazy. Forget the grand sxcheme, I can’t even focus on simple things. It’s not even like it’s the things that bore me; stuff that I am completely interested in and whole-heartedly love, I just can’t get my mind to slow down. I think in someways on some things it’s like I’m unconsciously sabatoging myself b/c if I truly focus on it and get to a certain place in it, the possibilities are literally beyond this world. How can I expect to have… whatever, I can’t even think about it long enough to finish an entry…

I feel that it is so very important that I keep focused. I think it stems from the ‘fact’ (figure of speech) that I conceive the world as essentially chaos and the order that exists a barely concealed violence against the individual. Against this swirling maelstrom of disorder and threat it is important that I goals that are clearly defined and that I am in control of what goes into my body. Giving up smoking and alcohol is part of this … the sheer absurdity of being dictated to (and that’s what it is) by a paper tube filled with leaves!!! My dislike of authority makes it more important that I exercise greater self control. hmmm …