build my self esteem

I am feeling quite empowered! I loved every aspect of Fitness Ridge. I lost 6 pounds, gained 2 pounds of muscle, 3 inches from my chest, 1 inch from my arm, 1.5 inches from my stomach, 1 inch from my hips, 1.5 inches from my thighs, and 1 inch from my calf, 6.4% body fat, and 1.1% off my BMI. I can’t believe that I did it! I feel like I can do anything now!!

I need to build my self-esteem badly. I am currently 40 years old. I’ve never been married. At the moment I don’t have a job, a boyfriend, or a place of my own. I live with my mother. I am not happy with any aspect of my life. I am overweight and feel extremely unattractive.

I seem to be always reacting to the world from an outside perspective. I want to stop worrying about how I am impacting other people and start living by how the world impacts me. I want to live by what’s best for me instead of how can I best avoid being a bother, a hindrance or a problem to anyone else. Nobody else seems to put my needs first. I need to do it myself.

Well i have a wonderful boyfriend and he put my pics on his myspace and some girl commented it and said how much does she weigh??

and i know im not super skinny but im not fat and when i read that my heart dropped and idk i feel like crying and everything

i mean i should be happy b/c he loves me for me and loves my body but when ppl say crap like that it hurts and idk what to think or say

i told him to take my pics off so no one could say anything but idk :(

After a period of feeling, quite frankly, shit about myself, I’ve decided to consciously move past it.

I’ve been practising saying positive comments to myself in my head, and spending time getting ready before I go out, so I’m not rushing out of the door feeling half dressed. I may look ok at those times, but I haven’t prepared my mind to think that I look fabulous. When I spend some time, I programme my mind to think I’m sexy and gorgeous and I tend to have a great night! I also tend to receive more attention from men and women…either because they like how I look, or because I look happy and friendly and a good person to have a conversation with.
Thats my theory anyway! ;-)

I’m going out tonight, and even though its just to karaoke at the local pub, I’m going to wear some great clothes (emphasising my ample bosom) and do my hair and make up like a pro. I shall be the belle of the pub!

I’ve had a battle with self esteem for as long as I can remember. I think a lot of it comes from things that happened when I was a child and I’ve been aware of that for some time. However awareness doesn’t do the work for you. Sometimes I think I’m caught in the trap of showing potential, taking positive steps then abandoning a goal before it’s possible/probable success. I’m not sure if I’m scared of achieving or failing – probably both.
When I do achieve I don’t celebrate just quickly move on to the next thing and or point out the flaws in the project.
I know this sort of behavior doesn’t build self esteem. I’m critical about myself and desperately scared of people getting close to me. I’ve been single for 5 years now.
I put up a fairly good front though as I guess we all do.

Now, I’m the sort of person who thinks that when Baz Lurhman said in that song “take care of your body, don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own”.....he’s soooo right!!!

I really do appreciate how wonderful my body is and how much it allows me to do, yet I have this issue with my stomach. Since I was pregnant and had a c-section, I have this pouch/overhang of sagging skin and fat that hangs down over the top of where my scar is.

Now, I know that this happened naturally and that I’m not about to go and have a tummy tuck now coz I’d like more children, but there much be something I can do to make it look better or hide it in some way? I know that losing some weight would help, and I’m working on that. Does anyone out there have the same problem?

In the last 24 hours I have received a grand total of 27 cheers from lots of different people! Wow! It was definately a surprise when I logged on this morning!

I’d like to thank all of the people who cheered me, and all the people who regularly give me cheers. You give me love and support to keep on going.

And I’d just like to mention that I’ve spent the last half hour cheering all the people who cheered me….some of the goals I read were truly inspiring.

I’ve been doing an aqua aerobics class once a week for the last 3 weeks and its really helping me.

Not only is it fun (and for me to find a type of exercise that I like and can stick to amazing), but its good for me physically and mentally. I find myself looking forward to every wednesday night!

The best bit is that I feel better about myself knowing I’m doing something to help keep myself fit.

I went down the pub with some friends and felt really good about myself….it doesn’t happen often!

I was wearing jeans, a red top, my favourite red boots that I love, dangly earrings, some make up and had straightened my hair. I got lots of compliments on my hair (it helped that I finally had it cut and thinned out the other day) and I mingled like a pro. Top night, and I didn’t even drink!