find inner peace

The life experience would be just be amazing…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ky6vgQfU24

I was once interested in personal development but more recently have warmed to studying philosophy. It seems that every empowering belief or concept I adopt has already been thought up hundreds and hundreds of years earlier. I’m reading the “Consolations of Philosophy”.

Recently I am reading some books about psycology. I want to figure out something about myself, it is said the adults’ personality are related to the experience in Childhood, this aroused my curiosity.If it is a truth, it is great that I have a happy childhood.

How do I meet this goal when my heart is so irreparably broken? :(

I hate saying goodbye, even if it is just a ‘so long till next time’...

I think I’ve changed a little to the better, while trying to find my inner peace again. In my imagination, inner peace behaves like water. If you’re in a troublesome environment, the water will make massive waves and you’ll eventually drown. But, if you’re in a peaceful and quiet environment, the water will be calm and you’ll have all the time in the world to overlook things and think clearly.

Since I’ve moved out of my mother’s place, I became gradually more quiet (think water ;-) I wouldn’t say I’m as carefree as when I was very young (about 3 years old), but pretty darn close to it. I know I can’t reach that level until I’ll have founded my own family, with my own little house, job, kids, pets etc.

But I’ve grown from the inside and I won’t derail as easily as before, because my roots are stronger now. I have great friends I can depend on, I have a lot of things that keep me busy and I have even more things on my mind I want to achieve in the future (just take a look at my list… ;-) Sure I have problems sometimes, who doesn’t? But there’s always a way ^{^^}

To be something that you love and understand… there’s something to that…

Simple Man

Mama told me when I was young
Come sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say.
And if you do this
It will help you some sunny day.
Take your time… dont live too fast,
Troubles will come and they will pass.
Go find a woman and youll find love,
And dont forget son,
There is someone up above.

(chorus)
And be a simple kind of man.
Be something you love and understand.
Be a simple kind of man.
Wont you do this for me son,
If you can?

Forget your lust for the rich mans gold
All that you need is in your soul,
And you can do this if you try.
All that I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

(chorus)

Boy, dont you worry… youll find yourself.
Follow you heart and nothing else.
And you can do this if you try.
All I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5gvSzbSMNg

So a good friend and I booked a weekend in April at Montebello – no men, no kids…just us, some wine and some shit to pamper ourselves with. I don’t think I’ll even take the cell phone with me. If it’s a serious emergency, they’ll know where to call.

I will do everything in my power not to feel guilty about leaving everyone behind for a night while I have a great time relaxing. I promise to come home refreshed and reknewed!

to find ‘inner peace’ when your heart is broken – shattered, even? From where I’m standing, I’d have to say no. I’m tired.

I’ve noticed as of late that I’m getting a much firmer grasp on being at peace with who I am and where I am at in life. Still, though, there many things I need to work on before I can mark this goal as complete.

I have to say that I didn’t work hard these days, and I didn’t play a lot.
I spent more time sleeping. And hopefully I spent some time reading.
I have no idea that I am fond of sleeping, when the time goes to 9 o’clock every night, I will feel tired and want to close my eyes.
And only until the next morning could I awake. And most of the time I will stay in bed for a while.

SO maybe I have to figure out that what shall I do for this. To manage my time more effectively instead of wasting too much sleeping.
If I don’t feel guilty about this, it is ok, but recently I felt a little guilty because I get panic about my knowledge, I have to study more.