stop talking to my ex

February 16… a text messaging fight wherein I got the last word. That’s good enough for me. We’d been broken up for 5 months but were trying to be friends. Needless to say, it was unhealthy. No contact is definitely the best thing. So it’s been 8 days and fairly easy to go without talking/emailing/texting because the last words we exchanged were so tense and awful. I’m going for never talking again.

done and done :)

im glad … I just don’t care anymore.. and why should I? Her loss and her problem. It feels so good to have the feeling of letting go. I’m a good person, my friends love me, should have to listen to her try to convince me otherwise to make herself feel better. she always made me feel bad about myself … and thats a pretty shitty thing to do to someone else.. just glad its over now …

still nothing, i feel so lonely though.. and i know its for the best as it just isn’t going to do any good for me as im just going to fall backward for someone that just isn’t worth it anymore. my goal to resolve some of this pain is to make some close friends, i think that will help me more than anything.

complete, i said nothing. and she didn’t say anything yet. so that made it easier. i really dislike this goal … but i think its for my own good. i don’t need to be hurt anymore over someone that just doesn’t care about being a good friend or whatever. maybe in the future… i could say more .. but I think i should leave this short. My mental well being is more important right now.

i dont know where to start… i dont know what i did to deserve this from someone else.. ive done everything i could. nothing seems to change.. yet she still wants to talk to me and be my friend yet she treats me like dirt.. when i asked her why she treats me the way she did .. she blames me for her problems and says its my fault for how she acted… how childish.. yet she had the attitude before i got to even say or do anything.
after the things she said last night.. if she talks to me today .. im making an ultimatum .. this is past ridiculous and i cant take it anymore.. i know im a good person, i strive to be a better person everyday… its not fair or humane to let someone beat me down and make me believe differently.

Okay, so, i love my ex ive recently broken up with him but im scared ill forgive him like all the other times and end up seeing him again. I try not to answer his calls and to ignore him but eventually i pick up and he sweet talks his way back into my life i just want him to hurt as much as me now, i want him to feel what i feel. I dont know what to do and i need help.

For as long as I can remember I have mourned the end of one relationship with the start of a new one. This worked great on the outside but I never learned to completely heal. Needless to say I still perodically still talk to all of my exes and still hang out with with 3 and I am still inlove with one. Lately things have gotten worse. I keep thinking about him. I have dreamt about him everynight this week. I need cleanse myself of that relationship and of all the rest as well. Its time to break my bad habit of serial dating.

I have already spoken to my ex this morning so I guess tomorrow is day 1?

I caved once and sent her an email before the 60 days was up. She showed me what a jerk she was by using it as an occasion to toy with me. So when she responded to it for the fourth time, I quit responding. A month later i got a VM from her and then two emails. I never responded. I’m not over her yet. I’m sad every day from what was lost. But I remind myself of how cruel she could be. I remind myself of how stained her teeth are with coffee, cigarette and pot stains. How old looking and wrinkly her face is from 25 years of 2 packs per day. How thin her hair is, how saggy her boobs are how chunky her legs are and how she walks like a duck. But I always told her she was beautiful. How often she drank excessively and then got in her car and drove. And how she hissed at me like a cobra for mentioning that concerned me. I remind myself how she lied to me and was out shopping for other guys for months behind my back and screwed two of them while we were still together. She hates me for loving her with everything I had. I’ll go 60 more days folks. I’ll go forever. F her.

I was doing ok with our breakup. I had passed the 60 days with no contact. I was to day 74 and was feeling good. Then my ex looked me up. Told me she had changed. She loved me. Hugged me like I had come back from the dead. Took me to her house and made love to me. Slept in my arms. The very next day she told me she was happy I was out of her life. And she had a boyfriend and they were having sex. I was devastated and started Day `1 again. All that time was down the drain. I had backslid. In a week she contacted me again.. same thing.. told me she loved me, etc. I met her again.. she kissed me passionately.. etc, then right back to her boyfriend. Started day 1 again. another two weeks. Started day 1 again. 22 days ago I said I wanted no contact from her ever again. I need to make it to 60 days. Then I need to make it forever. God please help me get over this woman. Please.