fall in love with someone who loves me back

He loves me… I love his friend… and his friend loves someone else. The situation has finally resolved itself but it has left me on my own :-( alas I need a new love and maybe just maybe they’ll love me too this time !!!

this would really be nice

I’ve never been in love. and i don’t beleive anyone has ever truly loved me, some have been completely infactuated..but its not the same as love. I don’t even know what love is supposed to feel like, i’ve liked people an awful lot before..but i knew it wasn’t love. Maybe i’m holding out for something bigger than it is..maybe i’m waiting for a tsunami when its really only a tide. To me love is being with someone you care about so much that you want to spend the rest of your life with. Maybe kids my age arn’t even capable of being in love, maybe im just not mature enough for it. Too ready to rely on my whims and fancies to truly love someone. Will i ever really love or be loved?

i had loved many people but none loved me back.Actually there are some people who might love u but u dont notice them because probally they are nerds or shy.i had this happen to me before but telling them u dont love them back is the hard part.hang out with one and see if that person is MR.right.

Iv been in love but i have never in my life time been loved back in return. I sit and watch all my mates with their partners, children, or getting married, and it makes me feel sad to think it will never happen to me and that im gonna grow old all on my own.

When people ask me why im not with anyone at my age it makes me feel like im a failure….

All i want is someone who is truly down for me.

... but I won’t give up hope just yet. My life doesn’t revolve around this issue but it would be great to at least be in a position where I can call someone my significant other. I haven’t been able to do that for years! It’s an empty feeling. Sigh.

My heart could really, really do with some loving.

The next time I fall in love, it is going to be forever.

i’ve fallen in love a few times
hopeless, crazy, teenage,
i-don’t-see-your-flaws
in love.

for once, i want to fall in love with someone just like that,
and have them love me back
the same way.

I think I already found this someone – Amit. I am crazy about him

Is no laughing matter. I thought I would just have my cry out and be done with it and move on with life. Well this happened a month ago and it still feels like yesterday. It just isn’t that simple. When you lose somebody you cared about for a long time your whole system is in complete shock and gets thrown out of whack. You’re never the same person you were – everything changes. I never imagined this person dying let alone so young! He didn’t even make it to 50. The news was broken to me by another good friend who heard through other acquaintenances and I was reluctant to believe it. I thought everybody was just pulling my leg. I wanted to believe it was a lie because I had strong feelings for him, even though I knew I needed to let him go, which I was prepared to do without him dying. For a very long time he was the reason why I couldn’t date anybody else. Then when I finally thought I was just getting ready to move on for the first time in almost a decade – no sooner did I hear this devastating news about his death! I am still searching for comfort in the hard fact that he is gone forever. He died on the 25th of February, just six months after he was let go as long-time property manager of our apartment complex, then he moved back to his original home in Minnesota. He died of a massive heart attack while he and his father were icefishing in Wisconsin. He was never married, never had children, but was looking forward to being back home with his immediate family where he could take care of his mom and dad.

After a heart-to-heart visit I had the other day with his closest friends who live just across the hall from me I’m feeling alot better. I’m grateful I have people who are still close to me who I can cry with at the times when the chips are down. It was an important time that I really took to heart because we were able to share alot of issues that we had to keep inside for so long. This was very healthy and liberating because for the first time I didn’t have to keep anything inside anymore. We finally shared our long unspoken thoughts about what could have been if he was still alive, wondered why things didn’t happen the way we thought or hoped, and came to resolutions as to why certain things were not meant to happen.

Through losses such as this, I believe true friends are brought closer together and those who were never the friends you thought become separated. It’s funny how a death of one person has that strange effect on many people who are still alive. I believe in the middle of all the grieving there is a bigger lesson to be learned that I’m just beginning to learn.

Having said this everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t know the why’s, the where’s or the how’s(?) We just have to accept the things we can’t change, pray for insight on the true meaning of life, and be prepared to go anytime because we don’t know when our time is up.

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